[PerkyAcups]

 I can’t believe how far I have come.  I started growing breasts as a kink.  With no intentions of transitioning or cross dressing.  I was 100% in the males staying male camp.  In the beginning I loved the rush of fear I got with every dose of PM. Knowing I could possibly grow permanent breasts, but I kept saying I didn’t want anything permanent.  Just enjoying the rush.  As I started seeing growth my mind shifted to wanting just a little bit of permanent breasts, just for the rush of having them.  Many of you have commented on my posts saying it sounds like I really do want breasts, but won’t admit it to myself.  Looking back, you were right.  I kept taking PM until I had noticeable permanent breasts, but I was still in the male staying male category.  Other than shaving my chest, which I have always done, nothing had changed. 
 
My breasts had gotten to the point I needed some support and effort to hide them.  I tried a few options. Tank tops, nipple covers. I figured out pullover invisible minimizer bras worked best.  I got the support I needed, I looked better in shirts, and you couldn’t tell I was wearing a bra.  I was wearing bras daily, but mentally still solidly in the male staying male category.   
 
A few months ago, I sat down with my wife. I told her I intentionally grew breasts.  Later telling her I like my body presenting feminine under my clothes, but I still wanted to present as a male like I always do on the outside.  I told her I like being smooth and wearing panties and a bra.  She was surprisingly supportive.   After discussing all this with my therapist I decided to embrace this feminine side a little.
 
I shaved my beard. Shaving my armpits and legs.  I am hairless from head to toe.  I threw away all my male underwear. Replacing them with 12 pairs of Victoria Secret panties.  Mostly hip huggers, with a couple boy shorts in case I need to go to the doctor or something.  I threw away my male pajama shorts replacing them shorter female shorts. I bought a couple more bras in different colors.  My underwear drawer is now 100% female.  My only option is panties and a bra going forward.  I also have embraced more of a feminine routine. Using lavender lotion on my body.  Using face creams.  Switching to female deodorant.
 
I don’t know that I totally fall into the male staying male category anymore.  I have no intentions of transitioning.  I am still not into crossdressing.  I still feel myself in boots and jeans. But I am very comfortable in bras, panties, and being smooth.  I have a daily routine to feminize my body.   I am starting to like going out with shorter male shorts that show more leg.  Tight sweatpants that shape my legs with flip flops.  I have gotten more comfortable wearing a bra and my breasts showing through shirts.   I would say I am at a perfectly balanced point right now.  But I guess time will tell if this progresses further.
 
Have any of you been here?  Where you able to maintain this or did your feminization continue further? What was your next steps?

[Stevenator_]

HRT

[Stevenator_]

Seriously though, I haven't owned any male underwear in 20+ years. I was in the males staying male until I realized that estrogen had its firm grip on me.

I still dress fully male when in public. I was at the American Legion bar yesterday, and no one knows.

I've gone so far as only buying female t-shirts, tank tops, leggings & such. Anything that was female clothing, but looked androgynous. I've got one whole chest of draws that's nothing but female clothing. Nothing that screams female, but looks androgynous. Once you get the feminine hips, ass & thighs, then men's pants don't fit the same.

The longer you take PM, the more you'll crave it. You might as well realize that HRT is the way to go. It's a much more cleaner drug than herbs. You'll be giving your liver a break too once you go on HRT. A healthy liver is vital to good results. You'll be giving your wallet a break, too.

I'm married, and fully male in public. I'm a IndyCar/Nascar/NHRA photographer, too. I run a Motorsports website. I can redneck with the best of them.

I do not blur the lines between public & private persona. I dress male in public, and drink beer & act redneck with the best of the drunks. You don't have to transition, just because you're on HRT.

I'm glad I finally switched to HRT, and I wished I'd done it sooner.

Best of Luck to You.

[huckleberrywine]

Hi Perky,

I'm at that tipping point as well. My goal has always been to stay 100% male but with some nice breasts that I could keep hidden under my manly man clothes. But along with feminine changes to my chest, comes the mental and emotional changes as well. Every so often I  stop taking my NBE supplements for a week to give my system a break and find myself craving estrogen  and can't wait to get back on my routine. 
My wife is not as accepting as yours , so I keep my bra wearing to a minimum when she's around.  However, she has taken pleasure  in buying me lavender and pink shirts, tees, hoodie and polos.  Around the house,  im always either in leggings or bike shorts. My boobs and perky nipples clearly show through the thin tees and have a nice bounce as i walk. I've gone hairless as well and picked up a Braun epilator to reduce the shaving stubble. 

I've come to a realization that though I'm not transitioning, I am in a transformation to a more feminine version of myself. One that I am comfortable with. My wife is coming around slowly. 

Hang in there, my friend. 
Huck