Genuine and real! 

Needed:  A place to be so, with the courage to look dichotomy in the eye, and ponder, with others, what could it all mean. 

It’s in our nature to seek understanding.  I think maybe it’s also in our nature to avoid the inexplicable by way of compartmentalization and isolation.  Sharing and comparing at least gets me out of my vacuum of isolation, and weighs in the balance on the side of greater understanding.

Somehow, I can thoroughly relate to what you are writing.  Having seen your selfies of your breast development, I’ve been thinking of how much I’d desire having the same, privately.  But, I live my dichotomy in a somewhat different way, and having two obvious standouts would reveal more to the world at large than I’m ready for, and tell a different story about myself than I believe is actually true.

I somehow migrated entirely away from porn.  I try looking at it now, and mostly it bores me.  Go figure.  I can explain it, but it’d depend on who’d even want to hear about it.  What can be rewired once, can be rewired again.

Hi all

after spending most of the day on the pc porn surfing due to one of my high heat days, it suddenly occurred to me it would be a damn site easier being impotent and letting the damn thing just go and shrink away, but my mind really is not built that way,

Some mornings i awake and there it the vestige of manhood throbbing and nodding away for attention and I feel a sense of pride and go and feel my tits ?, go figure,

In the cold light of day I really can see the appeal of an orchi to quieten it down, or sometimes  I wish the wife would just turn around and say thats it dont like penetration now , you can do what you want and let it wither away or cage it ,

So who here feels this way now,

Do you like the tool below ?
Do you wish it gone, ?
Would an orchi appeal ?
If married do you wish your wife to say ok dump it
Do you still use it ?

Reason I ask on this thread is that I absolutely love using it, BUT I COULD SERIOUSLY NOW LET IT GO ?

which really is a first
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Julie

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i live as a man ive recently discoverd chastity and im realy enjoying it my hope is to be able to give up havin orgadms completly

even though in the past i have had so much pleashur from my penis recently ive felt id love to just get rid of it . my wifes not been interested in sex for some years so theres no reason to keep it for her.
if it was a easy fix i would have a orci and have my genitals turned into a vagina but its not a easy fix its a long hard road to get that operation done hear in the uk and any sort of operation is a serous thing .
id have never belived i could what to do this and even now i would not what to try living as a woman with all its complications and social implications but if i could have my genitals swapped without anyone knowing id jump at the chance

Chastity is very interesting, isn't it?  It is entirely possible to forego having orgasms.  The ability to edge for hours arguably makes you great lover.  Still, no guarantee ones wife will have any appreciation for it once she’s past menopause.  Then what?  It’s entirely feasible to keep and recirculate the energy one used to put into one’s wife.  I’ve found I can use the saved energy for other stuff, like keeping myself young.

I’ve wondered why I’ve never read of anyone expressing vagina envy.  Why on earth not?  The very magical gate which receives creative energy?  I would think that would feel really nice.  I suppose there are ways to approximate that.  Best to become mindful of my own sexual energy, and become aware of ways to have that energy recreate me.  The temptation to loose it subsides over time, as the body becomes accustomed to the thrill of freshness recirculating throughout its being.

12 years’ practice at being technically celibate doesn’t make me want to lose my boy bits, even though I think I’d have been really hot as a woman.  If my wife is going to re-invent the relationship, then I’m going to re-invent me, and keep myself in mint condition.

Chastity is very interesting, isn't it?  It is entirely possible to forego having orgasms.  The ability to edge for hours arguably makes you great lover.  Still, no guarantee ones wife will have any appreciation for it once she’s past menopause.  Then what?  It’s entirely feasible to keep and recirculate the energy one used to put into one’s wife.  I’ve found I can use the saved energy for other stuff, like keeping myself young.

I’ve wondered why I’ve never read of anyone expressing vagina envy.  Why on earth not?  The very magical gate which receives creative energy?  I would think that would feel really nice.  I suppose there are ways to approximate that.  Best to become mindful of my own sexual energy, and become aware of ways to have that energy recreate me.  The temptation to loose it subsides over time, as the body becomes accustomed to the thrill of freshness recirculating throughout its being.

12 years’ practice at being technically celibate doesn’t make me want to lose my boy bits, even though I think I’d have been really hot as a woman.  If my wife is going to re-invent the relationship, then I’m going to re-invent me, and keep myself in mint condition.

i am lucky i have very sensertive nipples and can have litraly hours of pleashure from them never edge or touch my penis my only sex organ in use now is my nipples .
i have so much moor pleshure from them that i would never whant to loose it for a few seconds of orgasm

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This is an interesting topic.  I am very much a male with the exception of having small breasts.  I enjoy sex, but ED has been very stressful for several years now.  Not being able to satisfy my wife is disheartening.  Years of porn and exhibitionism has affected me greatly.  If I can't satisfy my wife then it is useless and I want it to shrivel up to nothing.

It is a very interesting topic.  One that I’d always hoped to see more regularly explored.  Learning from others’ perspectives in such an anonymous forum seems as though it might be a lot like a 12 step program for the sexually conflicted male.

Pornography has led me to some dark places on the internet and rewired my brain.  Porn that would never have turned me on at all has turned into fetishes that go against who I feel like I am.  If I could go back I would stay completely away from internet porn and certainly wouldn't be walking around as man with female breasts.  Don't get me wrong, I like my little breasts. I think they look good on me. I love feeling them. I even like that feeling of being topless knowing some people notice I have a very feminine chest.  But I know I wouldn't have those feelings if I didn't dive into the porn rabbit hole.

the phrase, 'letting go of my manhood' has such a disheartening sound to me.  Looking in the mirror seeing my breasts and my limp penis that struggles to get hard anymore I see my manhood slipping away.  I am not the man I used to be and

itthat makes me sad.  Especially knowing I did this to myself by taking PM. 

I am not trying to be debbie downer here.  this topic just really hit home pretty hard and I thought I would be honest.

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it is interesting i to have felt should i try and save my manhood should i try and use my penis with masterbation rather than not use it at all and just let it wither away .
but the reality is my wife is no longer interested in sex and bewcouse we ve not had sex for some years now im no longer capable of performing intercourse for moor than i few seconds i just decided to let it go . i no longer masterbate or touch my penis other than to pee however i do get lots of pleshure from nipple stimulation

I am not sure this thread has maintained a positive direction. I am new on this path I understand there are risk involved.  I take a high dose of pm 8 2x a day along with the combo I feels works with my system. I also take yohimbine when I feel I want to have an erection,  I used this in the past when I developed ed for lack of enough physical activity and have tested with pm and seems to work just as well. Welcome back screaming orgasms that might wake the neighbors.

I like my breast that have formed I like the changes in body fat as I fast away some old fat and add back some new in slightly different ways. I am enjoying the soft skin, the feelings I get when my skin senses a breeze. I did finally tell the wife, should have done so before started was a mistake.

I feel like i am easing towards that natural place I have always felt was me. not exactly a man but not a woman. A flux state this has put my mind at ease making these adjustments. and revitalized my life

I am not sure this thread has maintained a positive direction. I am new on this path I understand there are risk involved.  I take a high dose of pm 8 2x a day along with the combo I feels works with my system. I also take yohimbine when I feel I want to have an erection,  I used this in the past when I developed ed for lack of enough physical activity and have tested with pm and seems to work just as well. Welcome back screaming orgasms that might wake the neighbors.

I like my breast that have formed I like the changes in body fat as I fast away some old fat and add back some new in slightly different ways. I am enjoying the soft skin, the feelings I get when my skin senses a breeze. I did finally tell the wife, should have done so before started was a mistake.

I feel like i am easing towards that natural place I have always felt was me. not exactly a man but not a woman. A flux state this has put my mind at ease making these adjustments. and revitalized my life

Can I take out a life insurance policy on you?
with that much PM and topping it off with Yohimbe.
You will be dead soon.
Sorry to sugar coat it.
Bobbi

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Be sure to leave a next of kin with a friend or neighbor.
Meanwhile, I’m going to start taking bets on a Dead Pool.
Who’ll give me twenty?

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Be sure to leave a next of kin with a friend or neighbor.
Meanwhile, I’m going to start taking bets on a Dead Pool.
Who’ll give me twenty?

You got it

I am not sure this thread has maintained a positive direction. I am new on this path I understand there are risk involved.  I take a high dose of pm 8 2x a day along with the combo I feels works with my system. I also take yohimbine when I feel I want to have an erection,  I used this in the past when I developed ed for lack of enough physical activity and have tested with pm and seems to work just as well. Welcome back screaming orgasms that might wake the neighbors.

I like my breast that have formed I like the changes in body fat as I fast away some old fat and add back some new in slightly different ways. I am enjoying the soft skin, the feelings I get when my skin senses a breeze. I did finally tell the wife, should have done so before started was a mistake.

I feel like i am easing towards that natural place I have always felt was me. not exactly a man but not a woman. A flux state this has put my mind at ease making these adjustments. and revitalized my life

Over dosing on PM will not help you. Eight a day? That's 4000mg right? Cut it down to half of that if you want it make any sense. That's one way ticket to not only health problems, but to fried breast buds too... If you keep on OD'ing, you can absolutely be sure there's no sense dreaming of ever growing them nice and round. Nor big for that matter.

Take this as a friendly advice. Don't make the same mistakes others have done.