HRT Greenlight from my Wife-Now I need advice ?

Nervously but a little excited I put this forward
As in another  post I trialled a diagnostic amount of real E to see how it felt, the results were like nectar to my body, I have tried e before but always mixed in with pm, but this was pure E.
For a while I have wondering about pm vs E and the safety and wanted to try the pure version in small low non transition doses.
Now  my wife is my life (corny I know), but she is, and I never do things behind her back so last night in the pub broached more therapy and indeed trialling a low dose of real E , she is good with pm and growth but has always been a little worried about real E, but when I explained I need to quiet this noise and all pm does to me was make me grow and does not quell the noise, hence my decision to try E and perhaps under blood work testing, she said yes makes sense.
Gosh,
Umm so I explained the Pandora box danger gamble, ie low dose could calm me for 5, 10, or more years or break me open and advance transition,
She said , umm , lets see if you can try for 10 years, if too much too bear after than , then just go for it and transition.
Picture Julie open mouthed
She said after 10 year s, kids are gone, its just you and me so yes, why should you not live as a woman,
Picture Julie, even more open mouthed,
I can adjust to most things as you know,
Now I am in a floundry, the thought of real E excites me, it always has, but am I making an error,
Does low dose stealth really work ?
How long can a Girl last under the radar ?
I know with PM it is transition, but is using E real transition ?
Is there a big difference between pm and e ?
This no longer fantasy on E , the next step could be reality
I really am spinning a little here today
 
Julie

HRT Greenlight from my Wife-Now I need advice ?

Nervously but a little excited I put this forward
As in another  post I trialled a diagnostic amount of real E to see how it felt, the results were like nectar to my body, I have tried e before but always mixed in with pm, but this was pure E.
For a while I have wondering about pm vs E and the safety and wanted to try the pure version in small low non transition doses.
Now  my wife is my life (corny I know), but she is, and I never do things behind her back so last night in the pub broached more therapy and indeed trialling a low dose of real E , she is good with pm and growth but has always been a little worried about real E, but when I explained I need to quiet this noise and all pm does to me was make me grow and does not quell the noise, hence my decision to try E and perhaps under blood work testing, she said yes makes sense.
Gosh,
Umm so I explained the Pandora box danger gamble, ie low dose could calm me for 5, 10, or more years or break me open and advance transition,
She said , umm , lets see if you can try for 10 years, if too much too bear after than , then just go for it and transition.
Picture Julie open mouthed
She said after 10 year s, kids are gone, its just you and me so yes, why should you not live as a woman,
Picture Julie, even more open mouthed,
I can adjust to most things as you know,
Now I am in a floundry, the thought of real E excites me, it always has, but am I making an error,
Does low dose stealth really work ?
How long can a Girl last under the radar ?
I know with PM it is transition, but is using E real transition ?
Is there a big difference between pm and e ?
This no longer fantasy on E , the next step could be reality
I really am spinning a little here today
 
Julie

Hi Julie,

I guess you never know until you try!

Being on a transition level dose (6mg a day) my results have been rapid growth to the point where I cant really hide my obvious breasts anymore unless I wear a shirt all the time and even then they are getting prominent if you were looking for them.  I have found myself just caring less and less about people knowing and to be honest am starting to get read as a woman even making no effort in terms of presentation.  Thats after less than 6 months HRT although have been on a transition dose for most of those. 

A large part of it is in your own head I guess but to me starting on HRT just made me feel right for the first time in ages, it has totally turned off the background static I have likened it to a radio being tuned in properly.  A large part of things for me was not being in denial about things anymore and not worrying about what other people think. It would be easier for me to be stealthy about things with shorter hair and not dyeing it but my brain just tells me I want nice long very blonde hair although the phyiscal changes I am getting would probably be very obvious after about a year at the current dose regardless of anything else. 

I guess you could always try a low dose and see if you like the results, if not a low dose with no anti-androgen or an NBE androgen shouldnt result in much development over a short period, but I cant say I stuck at a low dose for more than a month although I had the mental changes very quickly the physical ones didnt occur until I ramped up the doseage.

The only issue would be that you might well just rip the lid of the box and chuck it to one side never to put it back, but I guess you wont know if thats the case until you try.  I would expect this is less of an issue on a low dose although I always felt like transition was just something I would have to do at a certain point than had in mind at the start.  

It sounds like your wife is very understanding about things, I guess at worse you know what will happen if you like it too much but as each of us is different you wont know until you try you can always stop again if needed.

Megan

Gathering from bits and pieces I've read over time, you really want some kind of change, stopping, starting, contemplating. Looks like a textbook case really... ready for the fateful nudge   With wife's support, I wonder what's now the single most powerful obstacle holding you back? Kids? Professional life?

Hi ya Julie.  

For me, I started out with 50mcg dose per day of E supplied by patch.  After about 3 weeks, it really calmed my nerves down about it.  I feel no closer today, after having the doctor double my dosage to 100mcg per day, to wanting to "turn in my man card".  

My wife has noticed me not so combative, I wont say sensitive cause I have always thought of myself as being empathetic and sensitive, but I have noticed that since my heart attack I am quicker to get really upset more quickly than before.  So, I think in a way, it has made my life a little less emotional roller coaster type of a thing.\

I also think that I have the best of both worlds.  Some days I want to spruce up to a tad, to days I want to be outright femme to days I don't want either.  It blends with my personality and makes it easier to change with my whims.

It does make it nearly impossible to hide my breasts and I am getting a feminine figure, but right now it's more the breasts and those dam nipples.  LOL.

I personally think, that if you have to transition....  It eases the burden of the decision.   BUT, if your like myself or someone in between.  It helps with that as well.  I personally think, if I weren't married, had kids or Grand kids I still wouldn't fully transition and turn in my man card.  But, never having been that lonesome bi or gay, I guess it's all supposition.  Huh?  So, my life keeps me anchored maybe but I don't regret it.

yes its a hard life we lead,

What stops transition, well I still dont feel I want to be a woman, I just want the noise and obssession to go , it takes up so much thinking time,

But yes def kids at mo, not so much professional life,

I still describe myself as its so sexually driven for me as a

Partially autogeniphiliac transsexual,

the label fits so well,

its just what to do about it,

anyway at the moment ,

20/04/17 started micro doses of E, no aa,

already nipples and aerola are starting too shoot out , I really hope I do not have one of those super sensitive bodies to E ?

console myself with the fact that at the end of 4 months of being off pm, breasts lit up by themselves and started growing again along with sex drive through roof, odd ?

so I am taking E to hopefully calm,

The aim is to give it a 3 month-6 month trial for an estrogen reset, and soak the brain in it,

have read about several people doing this and effects last for some time,

what I find with pm is , it drops the T but does not calm me, it just continually turns me on , until I reach tank position


Tank position is then when T level drops and I literally SWITCH OFF, and go yuck and turn against it all, and its literally overnight,

It seems and I could be wrong my ideal position is subdued T, and we shall see if an addition of real E helps,

Oh well , all in the name of research eh ?


Julie

Well Julie is not a happy transgender this morning



Almost 1.5 years on pm and mr happy was very happy and always willing to diligently and instantly perform

Now 15 days in on small and I mean real small doses of e , wife jumps me last night and mr happy is asleep ????????


Shock horror, mr happy then stirs, moves a bit then goes back to dream land 

Now ok I admit that he had some exercise earlier in the day but even so ???

Also yes it may have been the mere fact that  we had only 42 minutes to get the task done as kids were on route back , but hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

So soon 
On such low doses 

Still wife said rock on , body will adjust


Shocked and disgruntled Julie

Well Julie is not a happy transgender this morning



Almost 1.5 years on pm and mr happy was very happy and always willing to diligently and instantly perform

Now 15 days in on small and I mean real small doses of e , wife jumps me last night and mr happy is asleep ????????


Shock horror, mr happy then stirs, moves a bit then goes back to dream land 

Now ok I admit that he had some exercise earlier in the day but even so ???

Also yes it may have been the mere fact that  we had only 42 minutes to get the task done as kids were on route back , but hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

So soon 
On such low doses 

Still wife said rock on , body will adjust


Shocked and disgruntled Julie

you could always start taking that cialis one a day pill if you're overly concerned.  don't believe that interferes with HRT.  I've known TG women who take it in order to keep their size down there so there's more material to work with when they undergo surgery.

Well Julie is not a happy transgender this morning



Almost 1.5 years on pm and mr happy was very happy and always willing to diligently and instantly perform

Now 15 days in on small and I mean real small doses of e , wife jumps me last night and mr happy is asleep ????????


Shock horror, mr happy then stirs, moves a bit then goes back to dream land 

Now ok I admit that he had some exercise earlier in the day but even so ???

Also yes it may have been the mere fact that  we had only 42 minutes to get the task done as kids were on route back , but hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

So soon 
On such low doses 

Still wife said rock on , body will adjust


Shocked and disgruntled Julie

you could always start taking that cialis one a day pill if you're overly concerned.  don't believe that interferes with HRT.  I've known TG women who take it in order to keep their size down there so there's more material to work with when they undergo surgery.

Yep, welcome to the iron club (no wood)!

You have to start exploring other areas which please the senses!

Megan

Oh My
Being an ALPHA male the world of dominatrix and sissification has always run deep in my core,
Anyway last night the wife commented how key suppliers had said how pleasant and calm I had been last 2 weeks, we laughed at each other and said if only they knew.
Then dear wife turned to me and said umm I am used to this new nice, and very authoratively in a deep voice said “you are not turning back now”,
Ohh the shivers went through my spine, the mere thought of being on hrt has always excited me , but to be told by the wife too keep on it, well it made me hot and hard all night.
Am sure there is a sexual side to this growing breast and hrt with me, yes the hrt is good to calm me down, just cannot decide if it’s a kink or a biological need,
Julie

A wifey to treasure and cherish eh?