(08-07-2010, 12:22 PM)Cheryl1989 Wrote: Asfar as changes that happen if your hormones change then some of the things you mentioned and said are a load of rubbish do actully happen in away when your testosterone drops and your estrogen increases. Your interests do change slightly, i still love football and rugby like i did before but i have found other interests that as a man i would not have had.
Just cant get me head round this one, as ive mentioned around this site before although i was only on Premarin for 6 months my sex drive stopped completely after 6 weeks, so for the remaining 20 weeks or so i guess i was under total control of the hormones, but i can honestly say durning that time my mindset didnt change at all and has remained the same to this day. Since the age of 7 or so i have always loved wearing womens clothes as wearing them made me feel as if it was the real me, so as i got older i went down the TS route, hence the hormones, but after the 6 months i just felt i was kidding myself thinking i was TS, guess you could say i wasnt 110% sure, ever since then i spent all my life just swaying from one gender to another untill ive came to this point where i believe i am both sexes and want the body to match.
In the bedroom department i see myself as a lesbian, so much so in fact that if my wife asked me to dress up as a fireman or something masculine other woman get turned on by, well i feel i wouldnt be able to perform if you know what i mean. As i am still totally filled with testosterone why do you think i feel this way, going on the basis that you say you started to fancy men as your estrogen increased. Point is ive seen councillors and shrinks to try to find out what makes me tick, but i feel they just treat me as if i am some kind of circus freak, maybe i am and destined never truly understand who or what i am.