08-02-2015, 06:44 AM
This is a update for all that know me and what's been happening.
Anyone that knows me or has read some of my posts probably realises that I have been suffering from a life threatening episode of depression for over a year and a half. I've been to hell and never thought I'd ever escape. I've considered ending it all many times to the point it consumed my every waking thought.
Things have changed. I am not saying I've been miraculous cured, but I realise now that the future is not set in stone and with help I can change it! I know there is a lot of hard work to do but I feel better able to face it.
The changes in me I can attribute to a combination of medication, intensive counselling and the wonderful help from friends on this forum.
Initially I was sceptical about taking medication for my depression as I felt it would simply be disguising the problem. Now I realise it gives me the ability to deal with them. Typically for me I could not be normal. Lol. I was having terrible side effects and was basically a zombie. Barely capable of looking after myself. I managed to get sensible enough to see my doctor and he described me as having an extreme sensitivity to SSRI's. 50mg is the normal starting dose and 100mg is the average normal dose. I am now on 25mg and I may have to half that! Lol. F*** being normal, I'm SPECIAL!! Lol.
Counselling is far more effective this time and it's really helping me to sort through stuff.
Denita
Anyone that knows me or has read some of my posts probably realises that I have been suffering from a life threatening episode of depression for over a year and a half. I've been to hell and never thought I'd ever escape. I've considered ending it all many times to the point it consumed my every waking thought.
Things have changed. I am not saying I've been miraculous cured, but I realise now that the future is not set in stone and with help I can change it! I know there is a lot of hard work to do but I feel better able to face it.
The changes in me I can attribute to a combination of medication, intensive counselling and the wonderful help from friends on this forum.
Initially I was sceptical about taking medication for my depression as I felt it would simply be disguising the problem. Now I realise it gives me the ability to deal with them. Typically for me I could not be normal. Lol. I was having terrible side effects and was basically a zombie. Barely capable of looking after myself. I managed to get sensible enough to see my doctor and he described me as having an extreme sensitivity to SSRI's. 50mg is the normal starting dose and 100mg is the average normal dose. I am now on 25mg and I may have to half that! Lol. F*** being normal, I'm SPECIAL!! Lol.
Counselling is far more effective this time and it's really helping me to sort through stuff.
Denita