(22-05-2014, 04:05 AM)flamesabers Wrote: (17-05-2014, 11:42 AM)ClaraKay Wrote: When first I discovered that I was a crossdreamer (a crossdreamer is a gender-variant person who is aroused by fantasies of being or becoming the opposite sex), and first came out to my wife about my nature, I told her that my gender identity was 70% male and 30% female. Today, I would update that to closer to 50/50. Was it always 50/50 and I simply wasn't aware of it, or has NBE, and the effects of estrogen, caused the shift?
If the latter, wonder if I should expect a further shifting of my gender identity. Could I reach the point where my female side begins to dominate?
Clara,
I think it depends on how flexible and encompassing your gender identity is. What is your optimal gender identity? I don't know.
If NBE herbs start to alter your mental health beyond your comfort levels, I would expect you would start to feel ever-increasing levels of anxiety and perhaps even despair. It wouldn't be unheard of I think that if things went too far you would have serious second thoughts about pursuing NBE.
Maybe the question to ask yourself isn't whether you could reach the point of being mostly "female minded," but how comfortable you would feel about such a possibility.
Yes, I agree with you, Flame, and I am looking for those feelings that would indicate I've taken things too far. I suspect that I will probably overshoot my comfort level before the doubts, anxiety, or whatever appear. I can also look to other forum members for guidance. Many of us are at different stages of transition and can serve as models of what could lie down the road for me.
So, who are my models, and what are they telling me? Certainly Sammie, Elisa, and Eva Marie are further along the path than I. I can see myself going where Sammie is today, while Elisa's at a point that's a little scary to me. I can't see myself going as far as Eva has, it just doesn't feel right for me.
But.....I have to remind myself that 6 months ago I didn't think I would ever step out of the closet, and, as you know, that is exactly what I'm about to do. Will that be an uplifting experience, as it has for Sammie, or will I find it disturbing in some way? My wife is coming to. Might that backfire? There's no way to know until I take that next step. Right now I anticipate only good things to come.
Clara