18-01-2014, 12:47 AM
(This post was last modified: 18-01-2014, 01:15 AM by Samantha Rogers.)
Clara, this is kind of where I was going the other day... I understand the analytical mind and the quest to understand... I know it can be confusing and trying and painful. I've been there, too. I get it, really, I do.
We all spend time trying to think how we came to be who we are... but everytime some suit or doctor feels the need to coin a new term or category isn't it just an attempt (sometimes well meaning, given) to make all of us conform to someone's little boxes for their convenience. And in the process, someone always ends up feeling superior and someone else feels inferior and really bad, like something is wrong with them for the way they feel, and what they desire, and who they love and how they want to be loved.
All so the "normal" people don't have to be uncomfortable.
I don't mean to be critical of you or anyone else, and I really hope I don't cause you offense (because that is the last thing I would want)
But...
I reject that.
Happiness is the goal. Pride in who you are, regardless of what anyone else thinks. Not just acceptance and understanding, but.... pride, dammit!
I am male and female and hetero and bi and gay and princess and warrior. Sometimes a top (well not much of that lately, snicker) and sometimes a bottom. Somedays one sometimes another, and sometimes all at once.
There are just a lot of people in me.
And there are no clear lines between them.
And I want a world where everyone is allowed to be the being they naturally are with support and without judgements. What a dreamer, eh?
But I doubt I am alone. Heh heh....
I guess I am a gender rebel, eh?
Of course I am also probably full of shit....heh heh... love the madness!
We all spend time trying to think how we came to be who we are... but everytime some suit or doctor feels the need to coin a new term or category isn't it just an attempt (sometimes well meaning, given) to make all of us conform to someone's little boxes for their convenience. And in the process, someone always ends up feeling superior and someone else feels inferior and really bad, like something is wrong with them for the way they feel, and what they desire, and who they love and how they want to be loved.
All so the "normal" people don't have to be uncomfortable.
I don't mean to be critical of you or anyone else, and I really hope I don't cause you offense (because that is the last thing I would want)
But...
I reject that.
Happiness is the goal. Pride in who you are, regardless of what anyone else thinks. Not just acceptance and understanding, but.... pride, dammit!
I am male and female and hetero and bi and gay and princess and warrior. Sometimes a top (well not much of that lately, snicker) and sometimes a bottom. Somedays one sometimes another, and sometimes all at once.
There are just a lot of people in me.
And there are no clear lines between them.
And I want a world where everyone is allowed to be the being they naturally are with support and without judgements. What a dreamer, eh?
But I doubt I am alone. Heh heh....

I guess I am a gender rebel, eh?
Of course I am also probably full of shit....heh heh... love the madness!

