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So, as you say, it's a fetish, and you're a pervert. Nice!

I have no problem with these words. Fetish does not have to be degradatory. I definitely does not associate shame or other negative connotation with the word.

This is from wikipedia :
Sexual fetishism, or erotic fetishism, is the sexual arousal a person receives from a physical object, or from a specific situation. The object or situation of interest is called the fetish; the person who has a fetish for that object/situation is a fetishist.

This is accurately describe my agp.

As for the word pervert, the definition that I found is:
1. alter (something) from its original course, meaning, or state to a distortion or corruption of what was first intended.
-> It could be possible that my agp is so strong that it eclipse my normal sexuality.

2. a person whose sexual behavior is regarded as abnormal and unacceptable.
-> It is indeed not the normal, means its not follows the common population sexuality.

When I started taking daily doses of PM, all desire to fantasize that way disappeared over a two week period. Gone!

Yes. In order to effectively feminize myself, I took anti-androgen in addition of PM. In result my T is suppressed -> my sexual libido is lower -> my agp is lower.

Regarding of identity, I never have female gender identity, even after transition I still consider myself female on the outside, male on the inside. In fact in the beginning I consider myself as average as other cismale except that I have a weird fetish.

I never tried having relationship with what you say as girlfag. It could work but I found it very difficult to find.