[GoneGirl]

As for seeing a therapist, I always though that was for men who felt they were actually women trapped in a man's body. Me, I know am I man, I have just always fantasized about being a woman.

Yeah, Frontier, we are both crossdreamers, just enough female in our makeup to screw us up big time.

I decided not to see a therapist also due to the cost involved and not knowing how to find a good one. I did get a copy of "The Gendered Self" by Dr. Anne Vitale. It was very informative. She subscribes to the theory that your gender identity is established after conception while the brain is developing in the womb under the influence of hormones produced by both mother and fetus. An insufficient amount of testosterone can produce a female gendered brain to a greater or lesser extent. For those of us who are neither male nor female gender dominant, life can be quite difficult. God, I wish I had know about this stuff when I was a young man.

BTW, I watched a French (English subtitles) movie last night called "Lawrence Anyways". It's about a man in his mid-thirties who decides to transition to live as a woman. His wife has a hell of time accepting it. As trans movies go it was better than most. Not the typical Hollywood stereo typing of transsexual women. I also liked "Red Without Blue", a documentary about the lives of identical twin boys one gay and the other transsexual.

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