[AnnieBL]

In living with my own gender variance, I have realised that I found various ways to sublimate or use it in order to make life tolerable. One of these has been travel - travel for its own sake, to travel is more important than to arrive. One form of travel is one's journey through life, and for me NBE has been a fascinating, illuminating and life changing journey. I did not set out to affect my mind, but it has been, and I am glad.

I am not certain whether PM has been the main factor, or the apparently permanent loss of testosterone production caused by prescription pharmaceuticals, or both. Either way, PM is very satisfactory and apparently safe HRT. Sex change fantasies gave way to seeking some discrete and modest feminisation that I could easily hide, and I hadn't really bargained for drug induced complete loss of normal male function and extreme atrophy of male parts, but now I am glad of my breast development and don't really care if it does show: but I intend to continue presenting as male: my family situation and my relationship with my wife are still stronger influences.

So, Frontier, you are on the edge of starting a journey which may take you I know not where, but I hope that if you take the plunge you end up rejoicing that you took it.