[GoneGirl]

What sort of emotional benefits are you seeking, frontier?

CK

I am hoping to be less anxious, more in touch with my emotions, less obsessed with sex, essentially a more feminine mind to match my internal conception of myself.

I've always felt too ruled by testosterone and PM sounds like a chance to change that.

I also want to feminize my body without it becoming so obvious that I can't easily pass as a normal male. I'm concerned about the possibility of PM causing drastic physical changes. Most people don't have very extreme breast growth do they?

Those were my goals exactly, and still are. PM is working for me better than I ever thought it would at the outset. It is an amazingly powerful phyto-estrogen. The only potentially 'drastic' physical change will be breast growth. The amount of breast growth you ultimately get is an open question. Some say expect one or two cup sizes less than your mother's, but I have a sister who is considerably larger than my mom.

My strategy is to grow slowly, take only the amount of PM needed to keep the mental benefits, and keep a log of my progress (with pictures) including any changes in my mental attitude. I'll bail out if I find myself becoming consistently regretful of my decision. Frankly, I don't think that's going to happen. On the contrary, I'm liking my breasts more and more every day. I seem to be 'growing' into my new found gender identity.

I don't know how old you are, whether you are in a serious relationship with someone, or whether having kids someday is a factor. These are things you need to take into account. I'm not in favor of keeping one's NBE a secret from a spouse. For me, having my wife's blessing on this has been a huge plus for my mental well being. Not everyone is as fortunate that way.

It's not a bad idea to hold off on starting NBE until it becomes very clear to you that it's the right thing to do.

CK