[GoneGirl]

Yeah, over everything I wrote, my wife had a problem with me using a females name as my username. So, I figured I'd have a little fun with it.

As for the sickness, I stopped the vitamins this morning and was fine all day. I also spaced out my intake from two in the morning and 4 at night to 2 x 3.. I had some interesting emotions last night. I was laying in bed talking to my wife and she was upset because she can't believe the mental changes, stating that multiple times in the last couple days she guaranteed I'd be upset and angry about something and raise my voice but she said I never did and it hit her how she's come to accept me being angry all of the time and couldn't believe the peaceful and understanding demeanor in me.. Anyway, I held her while she cried and I assured her how much I love her and it almost put me into tears.. I don't cry.. Yet.

I'm thinking about picking up some SP to compliment the mood changes.. Yay/nay?

Yeah, it's real. I mean the mental changes are kind of freaky, aren't they? My wife has made mention of the changes in me, too. She likes them. It's a big factor in her acceptance. She still says she's confused about this bi-gender identity thing. I told her it's not something that can be explained, it just is. I said that I'll stop taking PM if she wants me to, but so far, at least, she's okay going forward.

I'm taking 500 mg capsules of PM spaced out 4 times a day. Next week I'm going to try to reduce that to 1500 mg/day. I want to slow down the breast development if I can without losing the mental benefits. I have to admit that being in the middle of the gender spectrum, my feelings about growing noticeable breasts go back and forth. I can always speed things up later if I become more confident about integrating my female gender expression into my daily life.

With respect to SP, I don't know what you mean by "complement the mood changes". I don't take Saw Palmetto. As I understand it, SP inhibits the conversion of free testosterone, produced by the testes, to dihydro-testosterone (DHT) which is what maintains your secondary male characteristics and sexual function. PM has the same effect on its own, but maybe not as powerfully. If I become unhappy with the rate my breasts are growing after giving PM a chance to work, I'll consider adding SP or Spearmint to my plan. As is, I don't think it will be necessary.

Hurricane, I know just what you and your wife are going through at the moment. This can be a very emotionally charged stage in your NBE journey from my experience. The relief I felt after years of constant subconscious stress was like blue sky opening up after a nasty storm. The aftermath presents its own challenges, though. My wife and I are still trying to understand what it all means. Take it slow and steady. You'll both need some sense of stability in your life for awhile. Mending your relationship and building trust is important.

BTW, you will cry eventually. I did, and it helps.

CK