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I like you new avatar Patti.

Flame,
Digging in that proverbial can-of-worms again, are you? I expect to see a wide range of answers, but it's time we had a more thought-provoking thread here.

Yup, I agree. I definitely had a longing for a thread that forces me to really think and rethink what I'm going to say.

Honestly, I try not to think about GID too much. Besides giving me a headache similar to when I consider the notion of eternity, I can never quite come up with an answer that seems to really completely describe who or what I feel I am. Could that be due to a constantly evolving opinion of myself?

Same here. I think part of the problem may be that we simply lack sufficient self-awareness to accurately describe ourselves entirely. However, I think pondering the issue at times can be quite pleasant and enlightening. I'm not out to solve the answer with this thread, but merely try to better understand myself and others.

I'd like to say you and I are similar, but with a few differences, (of course). No matter the situation, or how I'm presenting myself, both through actions and appearances, my mind is always processing things from both the male and female views. My appearance is often obviously male, but my actions are far from being overtly masculine. That's by design. Doing so would only serve to upset the feminine side of me. Make sense? In short, I have to live with me, and if the overall impression I demonstrate to others doesn't please me, it bothers me.

While I may have distinctly feminine and masculine aspects of my personality and behavior, I don't see the two as conflicted or otherwise working against the other. It's not like for every feminine thing I engage in, I have to partake in an equally masculine thing and vice versa. Instead, I see the two as separate units that aren't particularly bothered or threatened by cross-gender behavior and such. I think as a whole this in turn means I act or say whatever I want without a concern I'm being too manly or girly.

Let me ask you a question, and think before you answer. If you could have a "sex change", would you? I would have to say no. Just doesn't fit my idea of "me". I don't mind being of "majority femme" mind, while being "majority male" appearing. I do admit, tho, to wanting to be mare feminine in appearance, but largely to "pull it off" more effectively when I want to appear female.

If you mean SRS, the answer would no. However, if there was a seamless and instant way to achieve transformation, I would seriously consider it. Lenneth posed an identical question a while back and here's my response to it:

If I had no choice in the matter, I know I wouldn't be bothered if I woke up as a GG tomorrow. This might not make sense, but I think my androgynous gender identity is adaptive enough to handle and even enjoy such a dramatic change, but at the same time I concede there may be benefits to being male at least a part of the time.

If you reworded your question to something like "would I want to be reincarnated as a female in a future life," my answer would be a definite yes!

Oddly enough, all this NBE, and being transgendered, has extremely little affect on me sexually. I suspect you feel largely the same. It used to, somewhat, but there's that mental evolution thing again. Now it's more of an image fulfillment issue. As soon as I can mentally nail down the image I have of me, then I'll know more about how to fulfill it. In the meantime, I keep exploring and learning, cause that's what people do. I hope. And I hope I have given you something you can understand? Patti

Pm and spearmint has kicked down my libidio, but my sexuality is still drawn towards women if that's what you mean.

Yes, you have given me something I can understand. Thank you.