[MissC]

I've found my desire to transition increasing. At first I thought that I would just like to be a feminine man with a little bit of breast growth, but the more I think about it, and the more I progress, the more I want to be a full on female with gender reassignment surgery and all.

I believe you could benefit from some Thoreau time -- get away from everything, camp out in the woods, fish, read... and think. A lot. Or whatever works for you to be alone and relax.

I've read most of your posts. I don't see someone who would benefit from surgical removal of his genitalia. I see someone rather unhappy about something else in his life, or with his situation in general. Generalized stress anxiety? You wouldn't be the first, and you wouldn't be the last.

It becomes easy to fixate on external things as the cause of one's unhappiness, and it's even easier to fixate on external things as a ladder to happiness. But happiness comes from within.

And this --

the more I want to be a full on female with gender reassignment surgery

just tells me you're caught up in the hype. No amount of pills and surgery can make a woman out of a man. Period.

Maybe someday the technology will exist to change one's DNA, chromosomes, skeletal structure, endocrine system, and reproductive equipment. But for now, it's a fantasy promulgated for the financial benefit of a few medical professionals. Me, I suspect there will be thriving human colonies in other solar systems before that happens.