[Missed Miss]

Tibetan and MM,

I understand and respect your positions,and thank you,but this absolutely devastates me,tears me up inside to no end! (About the kids)

But how did I ever miss the signs?....in my younger days I was a model and danced.My best friend was gay,even went to gay bars,but loved I loved women too much ,so I was straight,and he respected that.
Instead of a career in dance or modeling I started family and a different career,and have been in a monogamous relationship ever since.But now,is this being TG?,(again with the labels)I just might be hopeless!

So why,after all these years later did all these changes start to happen,what drives a person to alter your body,yes,MM nobody has the right to force us to be otherwise.Sometimes I think I might be over that fence rather than on it.But with all theses emotions going on and yes!,being the type of person that wants answers,I have none,and just left speechless...


P.S. I have read and gained so much knowledge from Isabelle's posts,hope she comes back!

ARE you TG, or do you just want tits? From what I've noticed over the years, partly of myself and partly of others, mostly guys, is that we seem to like really swish things! For instance, if I was buying a car and I had two choices: one is just a very standard car, no extras of any kind on the dash board, and the other had all sorts of buttons and gizmos, I'd take the one with all the buttons!! Here I am in the body of a guy and it's not very thrilling at all, No extra bits. Then I see a woman's body, which HAS the fun extra bits, and I want one of those!! Maybe that's what's happened to you. Although, in my case, it's not just wanting the fancy model over the bland one, I WANT to be a girl!! When I was 2, I tried on mom's lipstick, when I was 5 or 8 (I can't recall which, just yet), I was lying in my bed one evening wearing one of mom's bras (around my ass, because my cheeks were the only thing I had to fill the cups) and holding my cupped hands as far out in front of me as I possibly could saying, "I wish I had tits out to HERE!!" For MANY years after that I've had MANY episodes of nicking my mom's undies to wear for a wank, and, in later years , my little sisters became the victims of my undies borrowing. From my late teens/early 20's onward, I'd ALWAYS imagine, in my wanks, that I was a girl having sex! Dad's mom died when I was still in high school and, under the suit I wore to the service and funeral, I wore a pair of dark red pantyhose! To this day, it's just about the ONLY thing I can recall of her funeral!!
So, wanting to be a girl has ALWAYS been a part of me, it's just not been such an over the top thing, as in most TG's, where I felt my plonker HAD to come off and I just couldn't function normally as long as it was there! but, as I've said, if I could snap my fingers, wave a magic wand or wiggle my nose and turn myself into a girl, I'd do it and probably NEVER come back to being a guy!! Another thing that holds me back from going full TS is that, with my luck, as soon as I've done it, they'll have come up with a way that you CAN just flick a switch and be done with it, but, in order for it to work properly, you HAVE to have the body you were born with!!
Anyway, it IS possible that you are one of us that just wants the swish model instead of the boring one you're stuck in. Nothing wrong with that! I think it might actually be part of why people GET tattoos and piercings!
Also, they say that your body changes every 7 years. One day you LOVE fruit, the next, you don't care if you ever eat it again! You've had long blonde hair all your life, then, one day, you just decide to cut it real short and colour it brunette. Maybe one of the changes you encountered over the years was wanting to be a girl!