[Akai Sin]

I don't want to discourage anyone from further comments but I just want to pause and say thanks to all of you who have contributed so far! You are all very dear to me and everyone's willingness to offer advice, encouragement, acceptance and understanding simply amazes me. I've never been part of a community quite like this and it makes dealing with this topic, and gender issues in general, so much easier. As you all know, my wife knows everything (she's the only one) but even she would rather not focus on it as much as I need to sometimes so having you all on the other end of this sounding board is priceless!!! If I didn't respond to you individually, please know that I have thoroughly read your comments and appreciate ALL of them. You're all the best!

Not much has changed since I posted the original question but I've relaxed a little. While it didn't take long to decide to pursue NBE and grow my hair to look more feminine, it WILL take a long time for either of them to happen and I keep fast forwarding to "THE day" when EVERYONE notices, all at once, and I'm standing in front of a hundred people being questioned while trying to explain myself. Needless to say, it wont happen like that but my mind has its irrational moments. I haven't had a second thought about what I'm doing and going down this road is so much better than hiding myself and my feelings. When I get to the not too distant future and if things get rough, which they may not, I'll be prepared, or at least I'll have all of you to come to for a little pick-me-up. Please don't hesitate to keep this thread going if you have something to say. I'll be checking often and always looking forward to more comments.

Good for you, hon! You can always send me a personal message for some heart-to-heart if you would like that. I'm always willing to help someone who's in a hard place of the same journey I've been through.

Cheers.
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