[Elisaustin]

I was born a duck that really wanted to be a swan.
I was drawn to female things very early in life.
I started to wear female clothes not as a fetish or sexual thing but to feel more female. I liked the way it made me feel. ( I should not have to explain this feeling to most of you).
I was not sure what the driving force behind all this was and that's subject to debate as we have seen. I did figure out that it was not quite excepted
as the norm lol. I also realized that as much as I wanted to be a swan I would never be totally accepted as a swan. I found that I could wear women's clothes and still not draw attention. Nobody has ever noticed that my shirts button backwards or my slacks and jeans are cut a little different.
Girls penny loafers do not look that different than guys.
At any rate I was a little happier but still felt not quite complete.
I stumbled onto PM and really had my doubts but gave it a try.
I am still amazed, I feel like a swan (the breasts have helped a lot)
but beyond that I feel my gender is complete.
So I am half duck and half swan and I am happy with that.
No matter what stage you are at we are all in the same pond.

Most people that I meet can not figure out what gender I am.
Over the years only a few people were even bold enough to ask.
I think most people are so busy with everyday lives they really do not care.

Elisa