[AbiDrew85]

Hello Julie,

I have a few thoughts about your post.

With wanting to be a transsexual, I think the grass is always greener on the other side. I don't intend to sound kurt here, but I think it's important to remember that transsexuals, just like any other group of individuals have an array of problems they must contend with.

A number of members I think have said taking pm diminishes their desire to transition. I think this makes sense if you see pm as something that feminizes you enough to sate this desire. In regards to the recurring erection, I think some members have reported their sex drive actually increasing while being on pm. In your case though, maybe your body is becoming insensitive to the high doses?

I'm not sure what a therapist would say. I've never seen one for issues regarding gender or sexual matters.

In my experience, there has been times when my sex drive tried to reassert itself. Those are short-lived though and I think they're becoming more infrequent. It's probably not a coincidence, but I've noticed that a dose effective for brain rewiring is also sufficient for keeping my sex drive in a decline.

As a TS I can confirm that things are not necessarily easy here either. Different. But definitely not easy. But that's not actually how I read Julie's post... I read it more as becoming aroused at thinking of themselves as being changed. Which I suppose is the very definition of autogynephilia... Which is something I most assuredly do not understand. Oh... I've had thoughts that COULD be construed as autogynephilic... but on closer inspection it's really just a very female arousal pattern asserting itself in strange ways due to my unusual circumstances.

Also as a full TS I don't think PM has that effect on us, in regards to the urge to transition. Honestly I don't think it's done much to me in that regard at all. Neither to push me towards or away from my inevitable full transition.

I imagine you're probably right for those that it does that for... It's just "never enough" for a full TS until they are fully changed as anatomically as possible. And if it were possible to be TRULY complete, we'd jump on it.

As regards the sex drive however... Definitely gives me a crazy sex drive. Like. Nympho level. When my estrogens get high enough, I'm ready to jump into bed with just about any provocation. Though I resist it and then satisfy myself later. At peak doses it's all I can do to drag myself away from myself sometimes. And I'm CONSTANTLY distracted by it. I quite literally become a "bitch in heat" once a month, lol.