[julieTG]

Now this is probably my own fault for reading up late at night
But it shows us all what we face here and I scratch my head as too what a therapist would say ?
Whenever I read about a trans sexual or what ever label ? going on “low dose” hormones I get exicted , jealous and want to be one ???
Now I am convinced a lot of my yearning comes from too much libido as do many other of us girls have same,
What activated me last night was the following sentence from a girl on low does HRT,
“when I am taking hrt all desires diminish and the nonsense stops in my head , when I stop again, the rage , the yearning, the desire comes back full force”
Now last night and to be honest not too happy about was
I had an erection ALL NIGHT , I kid you not at the thought of growing , well actually am growing breasts,
Every damn half hour I awoke and it was still their, it literally never went down all night, one hand on breasts the other on the tackle, every half hour I awoke annoyed and thinking this is bloody ridiculous,
It got me thinking though and proves too me us girls have to do or take something whether its hrt , herbs, etc,
I mean what exactly would a therapist say , they cannot talk an erection away ?
So in a way its validation too me that something has to be consumed too quell the fire ?
In essence something too kill the libido too stop me desiring too be a woman,
It was rammed home last night,
“my hormones must be out of balance” as I really was a like a cat on heat,
By the way , I am on large doses at the moment, so I suppose it could be t levels ramping and fighting the herbs, but what an extreme level kick, also I am getting
“fast growth” at the moment so its all a little puzzling,

Julie