[Lisia]

But yeah, I'm not trying to downplay your fears. I have the same ones, but your desires are not going to go away, so try to stay positive.

We all simply live until we die anyway, all these worldly stresses will eventually become meaningless, so enjoy yourself and don't worry so much!

LOL, if I wasn't taking PM there is no way I'd be this positive. So yeah, whatever consequences there are it beats being miserable with no hope for any future improvement of that mindset.

Oh yeah, and I'm with you on the bra in public. Without one everythings fine....if I wore one they'd be SO obvious to everyone. Maybe it's just our height/weight.

I completely agree, one of the things that often spurs me onward is the thought that this life is my only chance to do this, and I deserve to be happy. I am also much happier and more balanced thanks to pm. I feel like I have regained at least some control over my stubborn brain!

Bra in public, you nailed it in my opinion. Being overweight is somewhat of an advantage in this case, at least in my opinion. With no extra weight to help conceal things up top, there is only one place on my torso where anything sticks out! Even an unpadded bra, which is not the easiest thing to come by in a B cup, is no longer an option for me in public, at least not as long as I remain concerned about other people's perception of me.