[Lisia]

I have accepted that I am Tg, but not ts. I don't want to be a woman, I enjoy being a man, but have a burning desire to have boobs so big that I would probably have to get new friends and a job bartending at an "alternative" club or something just to make a living. I have a feeling nobody would ever hire me for a "normal" job ever again, but every time I stop due to these fears, the desire comes RAGING back, and I continue on, a little bit bigger breasted and a little bit closer to this imagined reality each time. My emotions on the topic vary so wildly it has been impossible to get a handle on how I truly feel. I know what some of the replies are going to be already, but I welcome any and all opinions and discussion on this. I just felt like I really needed to get these thoughts out of my head and into the open, even if it is only in the relatively safe confines of this very supportive group of people.