[spanky (aka Lola)]

I had a conversation with my wife a couple of days ago about the fact that I would like to become more female. A couple of weeks ago, I had told her that I wanted to have breasts and a more feminine shape, and she gently put the subject off. This follows a couple of years of discussions about becoming more feminine in personality and psychology, as well as her knowledge and support for my wearing more feminine clothing, perfume, and the like.

In the conversation this week, I told her that thinking of myself more as a woman than a man makes me happy and more peaceful, and that it is an exciting prospect. She responded that she thinks that it is great and that she is quite content if I feel this way. She said that I definitely seem happier. She added, however, that she does not want me to “take anything” to develop breasts unless what I want is to fully transition – a sort of either/or take on physically manifesting femininity. I responded rather meekly, asking only that she not rule anything out. At present I do not contemplate going all the way with transition, but just want a more feminine shape to go along with a more feminine understanding of, and approach to, life.

I love her deeply and fully respect her right to her feelings on the subject. I have been with her a long time, and her tolerance, and even support, of these changes is really gratifying. She clearly appreciates the changes and feminization of my behavior and personality. I am hoping, however, that she can add physical changes in my body to the changes she accepts. While I don’t want to nag or badger her into relenting, I do want to keep trying. Any thoughtful suggestions would be appreciated.