[flamesabers]

I think I understand the cross dressing part a bit better now, just as long as the joy is not taken out of it.

Whether you lose the joy in crossdressing I think really depends on your motive for crossdressing and the extent of brain rewiring you experience. I suspect you probably won't lose an interest in crossdressing, but it's not an unlikely possibility your feelings towards crossdressing may change as you pursue an NBE regime. For me I prefer having the brain rewiring effects over the sexual thrills of crossdressing. I wouldn't want to go back to the way things were before.