[AbiDrew85]

I'm sorry, but you're not going to like what I've got to say...

Your story is the sort of story that gets played over and over again... You ARE a transsexual. You'll never be happy not going all the way. In fact, starting PM and SP could very well make you want to transition even more. Give you a taste, so to speak.

So... Be well aware of the potential consequence here.

There... I've said it... It needed to be said.

Anyways... start low. What kind of SP and PM did you get?

EDIT: I COULD be wrong of course, and I suppose it might be able to give you enough relief to live with...