[dargona]

Well regarding the cost for me it is fine since I need such a small amount.

I think PM throws me into estrogen dominance for some reason, probably there is some anomaly with my hormone levels from before. I have been reading about estrogen dominance and I do experience quite a few of the symptoms listed. These symptoms occurred originally after 1000 mg /day for 1 month. Since then every time I have tried PM the symptoms have occurred quicker and quicker, first an initial boost of well being and vanishing OCD, then symptoms such as sinus congestion, Cold hands and feet, Depression with anxiety or agitation, Dry eyes, Abdomen seeming bloated, Fatigue, Foggy thinking, Headaches, Insomnia, Memory loss, Mood swings and an upset stomach.

What do you think? Since my first encounter with PM my estrogen levels could be still abnormally high? Please note that 250mg x 2 caused all these symptoms for me now in just 2 days, plus the smooth skin and sensitive, erect nipples.

As a solution I am thinking about progesterone cream, maybe it can work, if indeed it is estrogen dominance causing this?

I have also been increasingly more prone to estro dominance symptoms while taking PM (500-1000mg), to the point where I questioned myself many times if it was really worth it. I haven't taken PM now for at least a month or more.. but I started making herbal tea again (it's been a long time.. but I use fenugreek, fennel, red clover, and a touch of saw palmetto and mix it in with my oatmeal shea butter lotion by st ives -- there is probably a much better choice but this is what I have)

For now I am taking it slow and doing more "physical" labor with my breast (re)growth compared to popping a cap (I'm not judging cap poppers). I am noticing tingles and soreness although it's nowhere near as frequent as it was over a year ago on 1000-6000mg of PM... but it's something and that's good enough for me for right now given that the side effects (nasty ones) aren't here. I'm going to try and monitor how this goes for a while (I also use a noogleberry when I think to or can) and maybe introduce other stuff and pay close attention to how it effects my body.

But herbal massage seems to be working well.. and certain mind set awareness and exploring with that contributes to something physical whether it's insignificant or not -- it's better than nothing.

I also massaged before on high doses of PM, although there were many times where I could skip massaging altogether while PM did it's job .. then again I was taking ridiculously high doses at the time too and had the most shocking event in my life happen where I couldn't remember how to speak my native language or put thoughts into words/sentences or remember people's names, and creeping numbness electrifying my body distorting my vision entirely. I don't want to selectively put myself through that ever again.. even though I do desire large firm breasts. There is a certain level of body consciousness that comes along with it.. which from that event I figured out and experienced and has drastically shaped the person I am today.