16-02-2013, 02:35 PM
In regards to the whole topic of males who want boobs and don't want to lose their dicks.. I am one of them and yes I am autogyn. (at times) as well but there is much more to it that that. I came out publicly dec 21st to my family and friends.. and anybody else who gives a shit that I am both a man and a woman, and it can be any varying degree between the two. I have embraced who I am internally enough to express it outwardly. (my parents were ripped apart with it and started shoving their dogma down my throat but that's all right)
I view myself as having both a male and a female nature.. or even 2 separate essences that morph freely (if I allow them to as a conscious being). There is no true definition even for myself.
Ultimately I get what the OP is talking about because I also had similar feelings when I joined these forums, and it's not that they went away, but I discovered more of myself since then. While we are all adults: in regards to groping and fucking myself.. hell yea I would. I do that anyways.. When I masturbate I am quite literally (emotionally) fucking my female self. My female nature takes over and all thought process goes away.. it's entirely feeling and sensation at that point. IT FEELS AMAZING.. and not just in the sense of doing it just to get off.. it's deeper than that and it's almost as if my 2 natures/genders have united as one.
I am not trying to push things aside, cut things out, or become something I am not -- for me: transitioning (in the classic sense) was never an option.. I thought about it but it never felt right.
I tried pushing my male nature aside completely for a while while on high doses of PM.. and while it was exciting at times.. there were negative effects (physically and emotionally) as well.
No longer am I running from myself.. and no longer am I running from society or the world. I look at androgynous figures in ancient cultures and that feels like exactly what I want to express (physically) who I am internally. I've said before that had I been born a hermaphrodite with all parts functioning .. it would be my most ideal birth, but I have this body and I don't regret it (besides if I was born a herm. my parents would have "fixed" me or I wouldn't have learned/experienced what I have. If NBE fails for me, I am still at peace with myself -- but while there is no harm in trying for a nice pair and I will take that opportunity.
While my eyes physically see gender.. I know everybody is a human being with their own life story and secrets. I am mostly attracted to physical females, but I am also bisexual. People are people, sex is sex, it doesn't matter to me.. and love is love regardless.
I view myself as having both a male and a female nature.. or even 2 separate essences that morph freely (if I allow them to as a conscious being). There is no true definition even for myself.
Ultimately I get what the OP is talking about because I also had similar feelings when I joined these forums, and it's not that they went away, but I discovered more of myself since then. While we are all adults: in regards to groping and fucking myself.. hell yea I would. I do that anyways.. When I masturbate I am quite literally (emotionally) fucking my female self. My female nature takes over and all thought process goes away.. it's entirely feeling and sensation at that point. IT FEELS AMAZING.. and not just in the sense of doing it just to get off.. it's deeper than that and it's almost as if my 2 natures/genders have united as one.
I am not trying to push things aside, cut things out, or become something I am not -- for me: transitioning (in the classic sense) was never an option.. I thought about it but it never felt right.
I tried pushing my male nature aside completely for a while while on high doses of PM.. and while it was exciting at times.. there were negative effects (physically and emotionally) as well.
No longer am I running from myself.. and no longer am I running from society or the world. I look at androgynous figures in ancient cultures and that feels like exactly what I want to express (physically) who I am internally. I've said before that had I been born a hermaphrodite with all parts functioning .. it would be my most ideal birth, but I have this body and I don't regret it (besides if I was born a herm. my parents would have "fixed" me or I wouldn't have learned/experienced what I have. If NBE fails for me, I am still at peace with myself -- but while there is no harm in trying for a nice pair and I will take that opportunity.
While my eyes physically see gender.. I know everybody is a human being with their own life story and secrets. I am mostly attracted to physical females, but I am also bisexual. People are people, sex is sex, it doesn't matter to me.. and love is love regardless.