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I am currently taking SP to lower my Testosterone levels. I was thinking of taking PM since some folks have said it lessons the desire to transition (others had just the opposites effect). But my concern is just how effective is the feminization process. Because easing the mind and sparing the body would be ideal now. I love my family, I love my job. And I just don't see a way forward.

As others have stated, I think taking pm may be the way to move forward in your situation. While taking pm may resolve your desire to transition, I would say don't dismiss the physical feminization pm may have on your body, especially since you're a fitness trainer. I've been on pm for about ten months and at this point, I would say my growth is noticeable. When I'm wearing a t-shirt it's undeniable that my breasts project out further than my abdomen. I also has had some fat redistribution to my hips and bum. I don't wear fitted clothing either. I imagine if I was and I would be exercising in front of others, these changes would be all the more obvious. The last two times I've made adjustments to my pm dosage, it was because I was concerned about losing my brain rewiring rather than the physical feminization.

While this may be a preferable alternative for your wife than transitioning, I think it's still important to talk to her about the likely changes pm may bring about.

How does your wife feel about your crossdressing? While my desire to dress for arousal has become practically nonexistent, I still wear female clothing although for very different motives. It feels like a normal thing for me to do, as oppose to being an activity I would only do privately and would never dare to tell anyone else about it. How do you think your wife would feel if you stop purging and show more of an interest in wearing female clothing all the time instead of male clothing? Would she object if you wanted to wear nighties or other feminine nightwear to bed?

I hope talking to a therapist makes it easier for you to figure out what would be your best course of action at this point.