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I think it is wise to stay completely off PM for a while to work through some of this in your mind. Changing your environment can also be helpful to remove distractions and influences. Take the time to decide what you really want, there will always be time for it when you know what you want. Try to focus on other things in your life and let your feelings have a chance to make themselves clear to you. Be honest with yourself and I hope whatever answers you find make you happy.