[Mandy88]

I don't think mirifica "turned" you from CD to TG. I think a lot of trans folks start out with what they perceive as crossdressing, when really it's just a first step. I was what I considered to be a crossdresser, but really I always had transgender thoughts, but it never occurred to me that I could do anything about them. Then the more I crossdressed the more I wanted to, so I started to crossdress 24/7. Then one day a friend asked me why I didn't transition, and it clicked. I never considered it an option because it was so expensive, but once I really thought rationally about it I realized there is nothing better that money can buy.

So I started researching and realized I could manage hormone replacement on my own, and feminize my body with exercise, massage and plant medicine.

so I think you were probably always TG and just never completely realized it, just indulging the urges with crossdressing until you started wanting more and more. Now pandora's box has been opened, and you will probably find that there is no turning back

I do not know if that's true or not for me. I do feel some sort of box has been opened, or is it a can of worms?
The thing that makes me doubt that I'm TG is that I have never, never felt I knew. I read a lot of TG people saying they always knew this, well good for you, I wish I knew too.
I have never considered this in a serious manner at all. That started with the PM experience, and at first I was like "get out, don't be ridiculous"..
I'm happy for you! So you didn't know at all at some point then?

Mandy