[Mandy88]

If you're able to get a better idea on your gender identity it might become clearer as to why you want to feminize your body.

Yes I understand this. I'm trying to work on it, and this is part of that.

No, I dress more for practicality and comfort.

Me too, or maybe it's not that practical really but sure is comfortable

Like I said earlier, getting a better handle of your gender identity might help clear up the confusion. I think something to consider is whether feminizing your body makes you feel at peace or more like yourself, or does it make you feel more girly?

Maybe both. This scares me sh*tless though. And it makes me feel lonely. Although I don't know these feelings and how genuine they are quite yet which adds to the confusion. I do however want a more feminine body even if I was to live the rest of my life as male, today I'm already dreading my body loosing it's gained smoothness. But I will probably let that happen and see if it is as bad as i imagine it to be.

I don't dress really feminine if that's what you're asking. I've worn high heels to a charity event but otherwise I don't wear anything that screams feminine as everyday wear. Wearing panties and female jeans have become a regular thing for me. I do wear feminine nightwear when I sleep because I find that comfortable. I haven't had any urges to purge all of my female clothing if that's what you're wondering. In other words, when it comes to what I wear I don't go back and forth between wearing exclusively female or male clothing.

Ok. Sounds to some extent like me. I have a really hard time finding male clothes that fit me good, always have because of my proportions (tall and slim). I like tight clothes. When I was younger I always purged my items eventually. I haven't purged now since when I started dressing more seriously (this spring). And I have no intentions of doing so in the future.

I think something else to consider is whether crossdressing more of a hobby for you or an everyday thing?

When I was young it was far between the occasions. When I was home alone or so, which wasn't often. This spring I started buying some clothes and crossdress like once a week, the first couple of times it was such a boost. I felt euphoria during and after the session. It felt good to let something out that I hadn't let out in a while. Afterwards I'd go back to normal boy mode and just feel a little better then usual inside. Then during the summer and fall my crossdressing has evolved to an everyday thing. Not outside of course but in my home where I live alone. Just one female item on the body on a normal evening at home makes a difference.

I guess what I'm trying to get through about this is that my crossdressing lately has become a much bigger part of my life then it was before. I remember one day this summer maybe it was in June or so. I had for some reason went to the grocery-store with female clothes under boy clothes. And I remember thinking about this that same evening in a not-so-sober mode and got a little sting of discomfort and unease in my belly, thinking "what ARE you doing?". I had that feeling return 3-5 times those days then stopped. I have been outside with some girl items after that.

It's most definitely more than a hobby that's what scares me. I cant seem to get enough. Yesterday I got an urge to crossdress (complete outfit) and it felt good. One thing I want to add is that when I have been out much during the day, in public, presenting myself as male, such days I do feel a bigger urge to dress when I get home.
Thank you for taking the time!
Mandy