Thanks JTX... but that's all so much more easily said than done... And yeah. I'm frustrated with my life right now... Mostly with my inability to pass unquestioned. I am a woman, but no one. NO ONE. Seems able to fully accept that. At least, not those I live around. But there isn't really all that much can be done for it. Doesn't make it any easier for me to bear it.
Apparently earlier today one of my older sisters and her "husband" (they aren't legal and have no plans to be) stopped by and my mom just HAD to talk about me, and they have a daughter also named Abigail, but she's an Abigail Lynn, and has her fathers last name... And they named her after a metal song...
Anyways... She just had to present my name choice to them in such a way that would get yet more people against me. According to her, they're "very upset" and "will never call me anything but Drew". I have to wonder how she expressed my choice in the name... And how is MY NAME their business anyways? I asked THEIR DAUGHTER, my niece, IF SHE MINDED there being another Abigail in the family, because it is somewhat her business... BUT IT ISN'T ANYONE ELSES! BTW... My niece told me she didn't mind it at all.
I'm Abigail because it's the only name that sang to me. Part of what got my mind going that direction was that my mom thought she was going to have another girl and was going to name her Abigail. But what hooked me was the meaning of the name. It comes from the Hebrew Avigayil, meaning "(Her) Father's Joy" or "Joy in (Her) Father" (or "Fountain of Joy", but that meaning didn't have anything to do with my liking the name). I kept the shortened "Drew" for my middle since it comes from "Andrew", but it also comes from Irish as just itself, and is used in Irish tradition as a female name meaning "Courageous". So, for me, I named myself "Courageous Joy in Her Father". The "Father" being God. Also, I prefer the shortened to be "Abi" because it's much closer to the hebrew, and "Abi" is the "Father" part of the name. And I don't feel like much of a "Gail" = joy most of the time. That part of the name is more to remind me to TRY to keep the joy...
Anyways... It's not easy, this life I chose for myself, (and I'm religious...) back in my pre-mortal existence... I can't help getting frustrated and depressed by it all on occasion. My name is Courageous Joy, not Infinite Joy. The difference is slight but large at the same time...
Apparently earlier today one of my older sisters and her "husband" (they aren't legal and have no plans to be) stopped by and my mom just HAD to talk about me, and they have a daughter also named Abigail, but she's an Abigail Lynn, and has her fathers last name... And they named her after a metal song...
Anyways... She just had to present my name choice to them in such a way that would get yet more people against me. According to her, they're "very upset" and "will never call me anything but Drew". I have to wonder how she expressed my choice in the name... And how is MY NAME their business anyways? I asked THEIR DAUGHTER, my niece, IF SHE MINDED there being another Abigail in the family, because it is somewhat her business... BUT IT ISN'T ANYONE ELSES! BTW... My niece told me she didn't mind it at all.
I'm Abigail because it's the only name that sang to me. Part of what got my mind going that direction was that my mom thought she was going to have another girl and was going to name her Abigail. But what hooked me was the meaning of the name. It comes from the Hebrew Avigayil, meaning "(Her) Father's Joy" or "Joy in (Her) Father" (or "Fountain of Joy", but that meaning didn't have anything to do with my liking the name). I kept the shortened "Drew" for my middle since it comes from "Andrew", but it also comes from Irish as just itself, and is used in Irish tradition as a female name meaning "Courageous". So, for me, I named myself "Courageous Joy in Her Father". The "Father" being God. Also, I prefer the shortened to be "Abi" because it's much closer to the hebrew, and "Abi" is the "Father" part of the name. And I don't feel like much of a "Gail" = joy most of the time. That part of the name is more to remind me to TRY to keep the joy...
Anyways... It's not easy, this life I chose for myself, (and I'm religious...) back in my pre-mortal existence... I can't help getting frustrated and depressed by it all on occasion. My name is Courageous Joy, not Infinite Joy. The difference is slight but large at the same time...
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