[Pansy-Mae]

But even if i stop for more than 2 days i lose all of those simple mental abilities that everybody else has unless im on a break which is usually because i have enough of it in my system which usually lastst for the duration of my break. I call it "riding the wave" and when the wave crashes and i have no more E in my system, i go back on it.
another interesting thing happens after I stop a while is that i crave having boobs and a female body even more than i did before i started hops.

does anybody else feels the same way?
any feedback is appreciated

Hi Alexis,
I can't personally relate to the mental stuff because it has never affected me in that way at all, although I know a lot of people do get mental effects.
However a feeling of, "Why am I doing this? I'm gonna stop" after taking a high-ish dose for a while, followed by a craving to get back on it after only a short abstinence is well known and very common, and I've certainly had that one! It is thought to possibly be a derivative of a maternal hormone imbalance when we were in the womb which may be the root cause of the need to CD/grow boobs.
We've discussed this subject several times ( most recently last week ), if you look around.