[Pansy-Mae]

I understand that, probably more than you think I do. I've been through the entire spectrum, considering all the possibilities, including basic sexuality, and over the course of ten years, almost eleven, that I'm a guy interested in girls with a distinct need for female breasts of his own. It's not like I came to this conclusion in a matter of weeks, I've done extensive research, though only a fraction of it I could understand. Ultimately, a major factor in my decisions have been experimentation, including closet-cross-dressing. The feel of a good bra against my skin is indescribable, but more than that, the appearance of myself with a full bust (inserts) was something I fell in love with. Now I want that bust to be real, even if not as big.

I'll add my welcome to that of the others.

I'm not going to reply to all the points you've made and the others have replied to, because its getting too big already , however the extract above is, I think, extremely important.
I can can well understand EXACTLY where you are coming from with this, and I think most of the other male members of BN can as well.

I posted this next bit only a few days ago in response to a similar question from another fairly new member:

This whole question of 'maleness' and 'femaleness' is as we all know extremely complex and IMO it is impossible and possibly even detrimental to try to categorise ourselves too tightly.
My view is that there is a continuous spectrum from one end to the other but with many harmonics as well.

Many, if not most, of us on here, are what we have previously described as " inbetweenies" - we simply do not want to go all the way, but we do want to develop breasts.
There is some work done in the US by Dr Anne Vitale which suggests a possible link between the maternal androgen/oestrogen balance during pregnancy which can leave some male babies with a brain that is pre-programmed to expect a higher level of femaleness. This manifests itself in a need to cross-dress, etc, and can cause inner conflicts leading to depression and anger. Taking oestrogens appears to give the brain what it has been artificially seeking and this can have several knock on effects - relieving the inner tensions and giving a feeling of peace and calmness, and most surprisingly ( on the surface), many of us realise that we lose the drive to cross-dress! Ironically, the very act of developing the most obvious outward symbol of femininity removes the need for it!

It may also not be totally irrelevant that you spent 5 years in the marines, it's fairly common for people such as us to take up overtly 'male' occupations, and it has been postulated that this is a sub-concious attempt by your male side to to get rid of the female leanings.

Finally... don't put yourself down! "Uneducated" doesn't sound very much like the real you...and the fact that you dropped out before going to sex-education classes has nothing to do with it, this drive we have is nothing to do with sex!