[blackhawk]

I haven't mentioned it to her yet because it's something I'm still trying to figure out. I know that there is a huge difference between intentional and unintentional growth, and yes you are correct, I miss that intimacy so much, but for some strange reason it almost felt natural ya know. I was relieved because I wouldn't have to worry about being embarrassed in public, but privately I was really upset to see it go. The biggest issue is fighting what I privately want to have which is breasts, and the fear of public embarrassment if I get to the point that I'm unable to conceal them. I guess the thing is I'm straight and love being a guy (strength and masculinity) and I don't want to give that up as a whole, but there was something that felt so right about that period of time that I don't really feel complete with them gone. I don't wanna transition into a female, just wanna be a guy with breasts.... such a hard feeling to describe, like somethings missing.