15-06-2012, 12:05 AM
Hi all,
I've been having a think about how hugely my life has altered for the better over the last 9 months in terms of sexual relations.
I always found it difficult to complete the love-making act (to put it delicately) through "orgasmic incompetence"; only by mentally fantasising a TG situation could I achieve the mental abandonment necessary to "let go".
I've been theorising to myself that the hypothetical "TS brain" finding itself in a male lovemaking scenario demanded that fantasy to satisfy its internal female conflicts. As such there was always an element of guilt to lovemaking, a sense of "unfaithfulness".
Now that I have some physical evidence of feminity, (which furthermore is extremely erogenous), it seems that I no longer require the fantasies to achieve the abandonment in that situation.
My theory is that the brain is seemingly content with this physical evidence to take the place of the fantasy... I suppose it is the fantasy made real, to an extent.
Similarly on those occasions when I feel the need for solo "release", using the breasts requires no thought whatsoever, whereas the penis does then require the fantasy. I wonder if, again, it is because the brain is subconsiously aware of the male and female parts being stimulated.
Anyway, it's just a theory. I thought it might be interesting to throw it out there and kick it around.
I hope the TMI warning was sufficient to stop anyone feeling offended (or bored)!
B.
I've been having a think about how hugely my life has altered for the better over the last 9 months in terms of sexual relations.
I always found it difficult to complete the love-making act (to put it delicately) through "orgasmic incompetence"; only by mentally fantasising a TG situation could I achieve the mental abandonment necessary to "let go".
I've been theorising to myself that the hypothetical "TS brain" finding itself in a male lovemaking scenario demanded that fantasy to satisfy its internal female conflicts. As such there was always an element of guilt to lovemaking, a sense of "unfaithfulness".
Now that I have some physical evidence of feminity, (which furthermore is extremely erogenous), it seems that I no longer require the fantasies to achieve the abandonment in that situation.
My theory is that the brain is seemingly content with this physical evidence to take the place of the fantasy... I suppose it is the fantasy made real, to an extent.
Similarly on those occasions when I feel the need for solo "release", using the breasts requires no thought whatsoever, whereas the penis does then require the fantasy. I wonder if, again, it is because the brain is subconsiously aware of the male and female parts being stimulated.
Anyway, it's just a theory. I thought it might be interesting to throw it out there and kick it around.
I hope the TMI warning was sufficient to stop anyone feeling offended (or bored)!
B.