12-06-2012, 04:27 PM
Hi Bryony
Wow...Thanks! It seems like obvious advise. And I've seen it mentioned a lot on this site. But its the first time that I see clearly that I must apply it to myself. For the first time I'm not just lurking here.
Yes my wife is well aware of my "gender dysphoria". She has slowly been coming to terms with it for many years now. She finally accepts me as I am but still is not able to fully embrace this side of me. I realize that even with that I'm luckier than most. But I still have this unsettled feeling in me. I have a strong need to have this part of me recognized and embraced.
And since I was still feeling isolated I decided to go ahead and try the PM. Again the biggest justification for me was the calming effect that you describe.
My wife is the worrying type. And will over react and assume the worst when I tell her about this. But I know you are right. It will be better for both of us in the long run. I just cringe at the thought of all of the negative reactions she will have. And every time I have an ache or pain or cant sleep, etc. she will blame the PM.
It's funny I do feel more calm lately but oddly I have had the desire to smoke. Not a good habit to start up again.
Thanks again! You've been more helpful then my past 2 years with my therapist!!!
Have a great day!
K
Wow...Thanks! It seems like obvious advise. And I've seen it mentioned a lot on this site. But its the first time that I see clearly that I must apply it to myself. For the first time I'm not just lurking here.
Yes my wife is well aware of my "gender dysphoria". She has slowly been coming to terms with it for many years now. She finally accepts me as I am but still is not able to fully embrace this side of me. I realize that even with that I'm luckier than most. But I still have this unsettled feeling in me. I have a strong need to have this part of me recognized and embraced.
And since I was still feeling isolated I decided to go ahead and try the PM. Again the biggest justification for me was the calming effect that you describe.
My wife is the worrying type. And will over react and assume the worst when I tell her about this. But I know you are right. It will be better for both of us in the long run. I just cringe at the thought of all of the negative reactions she will have. And every time I have an ache or pain or cant sleep, etc. she will blame the PM.
It's funny I do feel more calm lately but oddly I have had the desire to smoke. Not a good habit to start up again.
Thanks again! You've been more helpful then my past 2 years with my therapist!!!
Have a great day!
K