10-06-2012, 08:01 PM
I'm sorry you feel this way and I can relate to what you are saying. I'm one of the younger ones on the website by the looks of it also. I've been driven to some crazy stuff, such as a DIY, and I can't bare any kind of movement. I have also sworn I will not live this way. Like I have already mentioned in 2 of my posts, I have been admitted to hospital, yet I will still not talk about it? I have a partner who loves me, and sex does not exist in our relation, because I can't do anything, I have tried but nothing works, neither is it of a size that can. Life has been difficult and I can't believe I got through school and didn't do pe once.
When I look in a mirror I can literally have anxiety attacks, and if I feel movement down there which is rare, I freak out. I looked for answers everywhere, and studied the bible even to try and find my identity. SRS is a massive risk, and many have died due to the wrong aftercare. I could if I wanted to have it removed, but I focus on tomorrow and get on with today. I think it's amazing that many go a head with it, I'm just scared of it going bad and dying. Those who love me would be distraught. I don't have the average male characteristics, but I'm still unhappy. I do understand how you feel.
Are you under counsil? And a psychiatrist? If not You need to tell your doctor and get referred to someone who understands. If your partner is ok with you and knows how you feel, you need to tell her how serious you really are. I still have bad days and every week I say to my partner I will go next week to see someone. I think unless you feel trapped, disturbed by what you see etc, no one really does understand.
I hope you find the right help and fulfil what you know is right. Speak to your partner and tell them how you "really" feel. You don't have a kink or just a desire to grow boobs, so get some proper professional help. If you really want something so bad you'll go get it. I myself, do not feel I can live with that down there, it's causing me to withdraw and stay in the bedroom. I do a hide away and cut myself off from everyone, it's a Lonly plc when our heads screw up. It's so frustrating, and will eventualy get to you so bad you'll end up in hospital. Get help now, and stop putting yourself down.
Kell
When I look in a mirror I can literally have anxiety attacks, and if I feel movement down there which is rare, I freak out. I looked for answers everywhere, and studied the bible even to try and find my identity. SRS is a massive risk, and many have died due to the wrong aftercare. I could if I wanted to have it removed, but I focus on tomorrow and get on with today. I think it's amazing that many go a head with it, I'm just scared of it going bad and dying. Those who love me would be distraught. I don't have the average male characteristics, but I'm still unhappy. I do understand how you feel.
Are you under counsil? And a psychiatrist? If not You need to tell your doctor and get referred to someone who understands. If your partner is ok with you and knows how you feel, you need to tell her how serious you really are. I still have bad days and every week I say to my partner I will go next week to see someone. I think unless you feel trapped, disturbed by what you see etc, no one really does understand.
I hope you find the right help and fulfil what you know is right. Speak to your partner and tell them how you "really" feel. You don't have a kink or just a desire to grow boobs, so get some proper professional help. If you really want something so bad you'll go get it. I myself, do not feel I can live with that down there, it's causing me to withdraw and stay in the bedroom. I do a hide away and cut myself off from everyone, it's a Lonly plc when our heads screw up. It's so frustrating, and will eventualy get to you so bad you'll end up in hospital. Get help now, and stop putting yourself down.
Kell