[Pansy-Mae]

.... I can't really make up my mind... (these "cycles" and mood changes
are not too frequent but also not too rare for me not to notice them)

That also isn't uncommon, particularly at the beginning. It isn't until you start to get what you've wanted but never really believed possible, that you are faced with dealing with the results, for real. Much the same happened to me: take them, stop, take them, stop, take them.... Eventually, I decided I did really want to go for it...and for much of the time since, I've been moaning that they seem to have stopped growing!

Only you can decide what you want, but take your time in doing so, it's a one-way street.