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I was also brought up in the 60's. I've never had the watershed moment you describe. It must have been quite the feeling. I've also never had that much opportunity to cross-dress and have been limited to underwear for the most part since I was a teen. In the past few years, as my kids have gotten old enough to be off living their own lives, I have found more opportunity to cross-dress, but since taking the herbs, I have not felt so motivated to do so. Confession: Other than as a child at halloween, I have never left the house wearing female clothing of any kind except under my male clothes. I don't wear female clothing other than underwear in front of my wife, and have never fully dressed (since being a child at halloween), head to foot. Not sure why, just haven't (and no shoes available in size sasquatch). I have forms left over from before herbs and a wig and a skirt suit and 2 blouses and a minidress. Haven't touched any of that since the herbs started making changes. I should toss it all but I'm a packrat. Our kids don't "know", and probably never will. I do recall posting something about that whole side of things back around when I first joined this forum. My wife would be horrified if anyone found out our little secret, and I do everything I can to respect that, although posting to this forum is the thing most likely to out me if anyone cared enough to hack it.
I would say that the biggest difference between our reactions to PM on a mental level is that we're simply different people with different responses to complex situations and stimuli. I wouldn't say you're more or less "screwed up" than any of us here in the rainbow forest. You're just another unique human.
PM makes you happy. Your family makes you happy. That's awesome! Too many people go through their lives never finding something to make them happy. Celebrate! Eat some chocolate!