06-12-2011, 06:45 PM
I've discussed in past posts where I am at on the cross-dress vs. PM thoughts so I won't rehash that here. I do want to offer the suggestion that while it is tempting to look at our changes and feelings/thinking from the whole boy/girl androgen/estrogen perspective, I really feel we do ourselves an injustice when we boil it down that thinly. Those of us who have been at this for years will most definitely have a mix of things going on in their bodies and brains (physically, never mind the cumulative effects of our life experiences) which can interact a great deal with this NBE activity. It has been mentioned that PM has a dopamine effect. Who knows what else is in it on a non-trivial level and what effects or ripple effects may occur? On top of that, each of us reacts differently to these things.
Anyway, I just wanted to suggest that perhaps there is a lot more going on than can be explained by looking at such a narrow range of causes. I personally believe a significant part of our urges (e.g. cross-dressing, self-image desires, sexual satisfaction, etc.) are influenced in important ways by our psychological view of ourselves. This is also modified by the messages we get everyday from the world around us, from family to the billboards we drive past. Throw our herbal activities into the mix, and then our emotions, and I don't believe you will have much luck separating out just the PM from it all.
Having said that, I like what PM appears to do for me. I like how it makes me look, and how it makes me feel (physically and emotionally). It makes me more anxious about how my wife and family are affected by it than about how I am affected by it. Nothing is perfect. I'm not going to over-analyze this. I will continue taking it or an alternative barring unforeseen issues.
Anyway, I just wanted to suggest that perhaps there is a lot more going on than can be explained by looking at such a narrow range of causes. I personally believe a significant part of our urges (e.g. cross-dressing, self-image desires, sexual satisfaction, etc.) are influenced in important ways by our psychological view of ourselves. This is also modified by the messages we get everyday from the world around us, from family to the billboards we drive past. Throw our herbal activities into the mix, and then our emotions, and I don't believe you will have much luck separating out just the PM from it all.
Having said that, I like what PM appears to do for me. I like how it makes me look, and how it makes me feel (physically and emotionally). It makes me more anxious about how my wife and family are affected by it than about how I am affected by it. Nothing is perfect. I'm not going to over-analyze this. I will continue taking it or an alternative barring unforeseen issues.