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Although I identify myself as being NOT TS, I have been disappointed that my need to cross-dress has evaporated now that I actually have something to give the right shape to female clothes.

However looking into myself more deeply I have recently been able to put things into perspective, and although I have lost the NEED to CROSS-DRESS, I have not lost the pleasure of wearing 'female' clothing, it just no longer feels like 'female' clothing, just 'clothing'.

Like most folks of either gender, I don't want to look like a freak and get stared and pointed at, and my face and head doesn't fit the rest of my female look, so I dress to suit the occasion. If I'm around the house, I can and do wear ...
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I've always been comfortable with what and who I am. Even back when I was in my early pubescent teens, sneaking into mothers/sisters clothes when I got chance never felt 'wrong', even if I was scared of getting caught! So in that sense I have always embraced it and enjoyed it.

Disappointed because I always wanted a female figure to be able to wear the clothes I enjoyed wearing, and now I have it (almost) I no longer get the same pleasure as I did before from the female clothes - as I said before, now they are simply 'clothes'. I may have a contentment with the shape of my body but I've lost that sense of pleasure.

The one thing I would say very definitely is that nothing was controlling me against my will...it was always simply a part of me and I enjoyed it.

I can really identify with this. Actually, with much of what has been in this thread. It is interesting to see how our views change as we change. I will add my voice to those who feel they weren't so much controlled by this, as influenced by it. I think every choice I made was indeed a choice freely made. Not all of them were probably in my best interests, but so be it.