[bryony]

Chrissie is definitely right about embracing your condition - now that I can accept what I am, it's even more of a relief than taking hormones alone.

Also, why be disappointed? Why not be happy that something that was controlling you against your will is now something that you can control yourself, and still enjoy if you want to?

So what's the problem?

Thanks.
To just comment on these few points...

I've always been comfortable with what and who I am. Even back when I was in my early pubescent teens, sneaking into mothers/sisters clothes when I got chance never felt 'wrong', even if I was scared of getting caught! So in that sense I have always embraced it and enjoyed it.

Disappointed because I always wanted a female figure to be able to wear the clothes I enjoyed wearing, and now I have it (almost) I no longer get the same pleasure as I did before from the female clothes - as I said before, now they are simply 'clothes'. I may have a contentment with the shape of my body but I've lost that sense of pleasure.

The one thing I would say very definitely is that nothing was controlling me against my will...it was always simply a part of me and I enjoyed it.

Whats the problem? Well, nothing really, in the sense that we can never have everything we want and I've traded one thing for another. I'm not sure that i have made a net gain though.

Ok, I get that. Well, if it will help, I can tell you that it takes very little time for me to regain my previous feelings when I stop taking PM. A much shorter time than it took Sfem to start losing volume. On the other hand, once back on PM she almost immediately started to feel "full" again.

What I suggest you try is coming off PM long enough to regain your attraction to clothes, and immediately go back on the maintenance dose until it becomes boring again, and cycle. If my theory is right, you won't lose volume, but you may go "on heat" for a while every month - which should feel a bit more feminine, eh?

Worth a try, I feel.

TTFN

B.x