[Pansy-Mae]

Hi Bryony,
Well said, thank you.

This section in particular caught my eye:

I've come to the conclusion that by accepting the need for feminising hormones, pretty much indefinitely, I have come out. The question is, do I need to dress as a female, put on the makeup, and change my name to feel sorted?

My theory, and I admit I am new to this, but I'm a damn good researcher, is that part of coming out requires the use of female hormones, and this is the key part to relieving the "pressure cooker". By adjusting the hormone levels, you adjust the mental balance. All else is just fashion.

Although I identify myself as being NOT TS, I have been disappointed that my need to cross-dress has evaporated now that I actually have something to give the right shape to female clothes.

However looking into myself more deeply I have recently been able to put things into perspective, and although I have lost the NEED to CROSS-DRESS, I have not lost the pleasure of wearing 'female' clothing, it just no longer feels like 'female' clothing, just 'clothing'.

Like most folks of either gender, I don't want to look like a freak and get stared and pointed at, and my face and head doesn't fit the rest of my female look, so I dress to suit the occasion. If I'm around the house, I can and do wear heels, female trousers and blouse/jumper most of the time. If I'm going out, I wear male shoes, trousers and shirt/jumper, and if I was going somewhere that it was acceptable I would get myself all dolled up.

I'm comfortable with this and I don't NEED to put on a face that doesn't fit and shove it in other people's faces in a way that shouts, "I'm female and don't you dare deny it" but in reality simply makes me look like a stupid freak.