[bryony]

The way it seems to me is that I've never had the driving force to be a woman, just that I wish that I had been born one.

That, plus probably my age, makes it immaterial to me how I present whilst I am calmed. All I really want to do now is get on with my (non sex-related) hobbies!

That first part is EXACTLY how I've felt all my life. I've tried so many times to explain it to people and I've never been convinced that they really understood it, so thank you for that.
My only problem is with the second part - I also want to get on with my hobbies, but I seem to have lost the 'oomph' to do it, so I just sit and stare at them instead! That's partly why I was wondering about a way to keep the boobs but get back a part of the maleness...oh well, can't win 'em all I guess.

I suppose it depends on the hobbies, but I know what you mean. All I know is that before this summer I had done almost no woodwork at all... I used to just sit and fiddle with the computer.. but after getting to my "zen" point with PM, I had built a huge log rack, put a shelf up in the kitchen, replaced some rotten planks which provided some tudor-style decorative frontage on my garage, and took the top off and rebuilt a garden table to replace some rotted wood. Ordinarily I'd be lucky to get _one_ of those jobs done in a year!