[Pansy-Mae]

I've now been back to 3g/day (500mg x 6) for a week and this morning it's all gone! _No_ desire for the belly buster (which had been so enjoyable yeserday and now I'm enjoying the comfort of _not_ wearing them!) _no_ obsessing, just want an easy life pottering with my hobbies.

If I could feel the way I do now, permanently, without breast growth, I'd take it in a flash.

However, I _know_ that if I drop down to as low as 2g a day, I will want them more than anything else.

What does that tell you? It seems to be very much like that paper that appeared in an earlier thread, about the effect of testosterone levels on the brain - but I'm not altogether sure that there was a conclusion on how to deal with it.

It seems that the choices I have are chemical/physical castration, and a life of celibacy, or what I am doing now, knowing that if I drop the dose libido will return with attendant difficulties, but with an unknown degree of breast growth!

The weird thing is that right now, I feel balanced, and not in need of any kind of therapy. It's just a bit unfortunate that it comes with boobs! (Or fortunate, depending on my current dose level)

My mother used to say that these things are sent to try us...

B. x

As we all know, we all react differently, but I do wonder if time plays a bigger part than we generally realise.
It took about 5 or 6 months from when I first started to when I lost my urge to completely cross dress and that settled down to just a minor level. However when I stopped PM for 4 weeks the cross dressing urge started up again towards the end of that period but faded within a couple of weeks of starting again i.e a lot faster than the first time around.

I also found that at first I couldn't tolerate 3000mg PM per day for more than a couple of days because of the headaches, but now I can go for a week or so (at least) at that level with no headaches at all.

So, maybe you just need to play around with dose very slowly to both find your level AND let one effect stabilise compared with another.

However this, plus sfems recent posting, does bring up another thought that has been floating around my poor addled brain, on and off...
we are all using PM because it seesm to bring the best( fastest?) results. We also know that stopping PM causes the return of more typically male behaviours, and crossdressing and it also allows the migration of fat deposits away from the boobs causing them to deflate.
Now... various other herbs, in combination do work for breast growth albeit slowly.. but do these other PM effects also apply in the same way? i.e are the PM effects simply phyto-estrogen effects or are they to some extent specifically PM reactions?
Where I'm going with this, is, could we use PM to grow to however big we want, and switch to other herbs to maintain volume but get different withdrawal effects?

I hope that makes sense and I'd be interested in anyone's thoughts.