09-11-2011, 11:13 AM
Just an update: I came off my 3g Daily (2x500mg x 3) PM dose on 5/10 due to the odd symptoms in my flank (kidney?) area, and experimented with gradually increasing doses to work out what I could handle. During that time, I slowly returned to my old obsession with transforming into a female, returned to daily "self-abuse" (that shows my age! :-) even got a belly buster (size 12 if you are interested 
)because I persuaded myself that it would help me with my weight loss diet(!), which I wore under my trousers to work.
I've now been back to 3g/day (500mg x 6) for a week and this morning it's all gone! _No_ desire for the belly buster (which had been so enjoyable yeserday and now I'm enjoying the comfort of _not_ wearing them!) _no_ obsessing, just want an easy life pottering with my hobbies.
If I could feel the way I do now, permanently, without breast growth, I'd take it in a flash.
However, I _know_ that if I drop down to as low as 2g a day, I will want them more than anything else.
What does that tell you? It seems to be very much like that paper that appeared in an earlier thread, about the effect of testosterone levels on the brain - but I'm not altogether sure that there was a conclusion on how to deal with it.
It seems that the choices I have are chemical/physical castration, and a life of celibacy, or what I am doing now, knowing that if I drop the dose libido will return with attendant difficulties, but with an unknown degree of breast growth!
The weird thing is that right now, I feel balanced, and not in need of any kind of therapy. It's just a bit unfortunate that it comes with boobs! (Or fortunate, depending on my current dose level)
My mother used to say that these things are sent to try us...
B. x
)because I persuaded myself that it would help me with my weight loss diet(!), which I wore under my trousers to work.I've now been back to 3g/day (500mg x 6) for a week and this morning it's all gone! _No_ desire for the belly buster (which had been so enjoyable yeserday and now I'm enjoying the comfort of _not_ wearing them!) _no_ obsessing, just want an easy life pottering with my hobbies.
If I could feel the way I do now, permanently, without breast growth, I'd take it in a flash.
However, I _know_ that if I drop down to as low as 2g a day, I will want them more than anything else.
What does that tell you? It seems to be very much like that paper that appeared in an earlier thread, about the effect of testosterone levels on the brain - but I'm not altogether sure that there was a conclusion on how to deal with it.
It seems that the choices I have are chemical/physical castration, and a life of celibacy, or what I am doing now, knowing that if I drop the dose libido will return with attendant difficulties, but with an unknown degree of breast growth!
The weird thing is that right now, I feel balanced, and not in need of any kind of therapy. It's just a bit unfortunate that it comes with boobs! (Or fortunate, depending on my current dose level)
My mother used to say that these things are sent to try us...
B. x