[chrissie]

Bryony,
You exhibit classic Transsexual traits. At the end of the day, embracing those, are all that will save you, from a mental crisis, Your family do not need that. This is something, so big, it cannot be supressed. It is hard, but, unless those, closest and nearest, to you can accept it, sadness and misery will prevail.
I think you need mega big hugs,
Chrissie xxxxx