17-10-2011, 02:18 PM
Time for another update I think. It has been a month since I stopped taking any herbs at all.
I believe my moods have steadied out somewhat. I still get angry more easily than I like, but I am doing better at leashing it when it shows up. I am finding I have the patience to actually think about what I write and have less re-writing to do before hitting post/send/save. I'm still driving more aggressively than I should, and I am finding that hard to control. Not sure why. I am staying at about 10 pounds less than when I stopped the PM. I have no cravings for the herbs, no physical symptoms of withdrawal, and no anxiety about not being on PM. I suppose I'm saving a trivial amount of money by not taking anything. Still handsome, porn's good, car's dirty, and bought cookies for my dog.
The tape measure says no change to my chest. I can say that my nipples spend less time soft and puffy than when I was on PM, and unless my chest is warm, they are more often like male nipples now. I feel fairly confident saying my boobs are changing shape a bit, it's not just my imagination. The sideboob on both has expanded, and the underboob has shrunk a little. My bras are feeling a bit more filled than they were, although the nipples no longer sit as high in the cups as they did. I do find I have to physically pull the side of my boobs into the cups more than before. That does make me sad. I never get much of any sensation in the breast or nipple anymore, and bumping them into anything or lying on them now just feels like I have one of those squishy balls people squeeze for hand exercise between me and whatever I have bumped into. My wife is interestingly showing less interest in my boobs and the whole topic than before. Not sure if that is a reaction to the change in me, or something more subtle, or just a coincidence, or even my imagination. This hasn't exactly been a long study.
Overall, I think I liked it better when I was on PM. But I am going to stick this out and wait for the end of the month before going back onto it. At this point, I think I will go back onto it at a maintenance level like before, because I like what it does for my mental state. No film please, and I certainly don't want to be any more super-sized than I am. But I do appreciate your interest. Stay tuned for the next episode.
I believe my moods have steadied out somewhat. I still get angry more easily than I like, but I am doing better at leashing it when it shows up. I am finding I have the patience to actually think about what I write and have less re-writing to do before hitting post/send/save. I'm still driving more aggressively than I should, and I am finding that hard to control. Not sure why. I am staying at about 10 pounds less than when I stopped the PM. I have no cravings for the herbs, no physical symptoms of withdrawal, and no anxiety about not being on PM. I suppose I'm saving a trivial amount of money by not taking anything. Still handsome, porn's good, car's dirty, and bought cookies for my dog.
The tape measure says no change to my chest. I can say that my nipples spend less time soft and puffy than when I was on PM, and unless my chest is warm, they are more often like male nipples now. I feel fairly confident saying my boobs are changing shape a bit, it's not just my imagination. The sideboob on both has expanded, and the underboob has shrunk a little. My bras are feeling a bit more filled than they were, although the nipples no longer sit as high in the cups as they did. I do find I have to physically pull the side of my boobs into the cups more than before. That does make me sad. I never get much of any sensation in the breast or nipple anymore, and bumping them into anything or lying on them now just feels like I have one of those squishy balls people squeeze for hand exercise between me and whatever I have bumped into. My wife is interestingly showing less interest in my boobs and the whole topic than before. Not sure if that is a reaction to the change in me, or something more subtle, or just a coincidence, or even my imagination. This hasn't exactly been a long study.
Overall, I think I liked it better when I was on PM. But I am going to stick this out and wait for the end of the month before going back onto it. At this point, I think I will go back onto it at a maintenance level like before, because I like what it does for my mental state. No film please, and I certainly don't want to be any more super-sized than I am. But I do appreciate your interest. Stay tuned for the next episode.