22-09-2011, 12:04 AM
I think that for some (possibly for me, at the start of this process) cross-dressing is a way of mentally offsetting the results of Testosterone.
Nowadays I wear dresses because they improve my figure and help me feminise it. Trousers are too masculine for me because I am already in 'stealth' mode and I want to make it as easy as possible for people to see me as female and then disregard me, have me fade into the daily background of their lives as an unnoticed female going about her business. As far as I know, I am succeeding. Maybe as I pass by, the whole street behind me is in convulsions of laughter, but I do not stop to check and nor do I take surveys.
Since I have no idea how others see me, I use every weapon in the amoury - perfume, makeup, hair, nails, shoes, clothes, posture, walk and mannerisms. I have been practising softening my voice so that a booming, resonant male sound is not present when I open my mouth. I have become much, much more slender than I was previously and I wear clothing that makes my hips look wider and my waist look smaller. NBE is, for me, a way of getting convincing boobs and I am about to start laser hair removal. PM is very much a means to an end for me. I was doing this to myself before PM and going on PM has not changed it.
What has changed is that I have become a real cry-baby. It takes very little for tears to start flowing down my face. I experience emotions much, much more intensely than before and I now act on emotional impulses whereas previous to PM, such behaviour was very rare for me.
Beverley
Nowadays I wear dresses because they improve my figure and help me feminise it. Trousers are too masculine for me because I am already in 'stealth' mode and I want to make it as easy as possible for people to see me as female and then disregard me, have me fade into the daily background of their lives as an unnoticed female going about her business. As far as I know, I am succeeding. Maybe as I pass by, the whole street behind me is in convulsions of laughter, but I do not stop to check and nor do I take surveys.
Since I have no idea how others see me, I use every weapon in the amoury - perfume, makeup, hair, nails, shoes, clothes, posture, walk and mannerisms. I have been practising softening my voice so that a booming, resonant male sound is not present when I open my mouth. I have become much, much more slender than I was previously and I wear clothing that makes my hips look wider and my waist look smaller. NBE is, for me, a way of getting convincing boobs and I am about to start laser hair removal. PM is very much a means to an end for me. I was doing this to myself before PM and going on PM has not changed it.
What has changed is that I have become a real cry-baby. It takes very little for tears to start flowing down my face. I experience emotions much, much more intensely than before and I now act on emotional impulses whereas previous to PM, such behaviour was very rare for me.
Beverley