06-09-2011, 11:12 AM
One thing I can say for sure .... deciding what to do if anything is not
an easy decision. And I'm taking all of the advice and warnings very seriously and trying to dig real dig for some answers.
This morning I read a post that Chrissie made where she talked alot about the feminization that she experienced taking PM. None of the changes that she talked about scared me (except maybe getting so weak that I might have to ask a man for help) .... as a matter of fact I
saw them as traits that I would like to have.
But that's all easy from where I sit now ... I haven't started to really feel them so I don't know how will really feel ... how can any of us
So here's my question .... can the transformation be taken slowly. Alowing oneself to notice the changes, "feel" and "live them" and then deciding if ones commitment is real?
I'm really not in a hurry ... BUT I am feeling things that I want to understand more.
Can one start the journey and then along the way decide ..
1. This isn't what I thought it was .... and turn back?
2. This is as far as I want to go ... my breasts are the size I want and I'm feeling "less intensely male" and stay at that point?
3. This is TRULY ME and I'll never go back
I keep going back and forth on what to do and what to take ... cause I'm not sure what I will REALLY FEEL when my breasts start to feel the things that many talk about in these forums. Or when I look down and see that my moobs aren't moobs anymore. OR when I start to think and feel more like a women.
Can I start with a small daily dose of let's say PM ... keep a diary along the way thinking hard about my transition and taking time to understand everything that I'm seeing and feeling and THEN DECIDE whether I want to go forward or turn back?
I really don't think I will do anything more than "speculate" until I feel it for myself.
Karen
an easy decision. And I'm taking all of the advice and warnings very seriously and trying to dig real dig for some answers.
This morning I read a post that Chrissie made where she talked alot about the feminization that she experienced taking PM. None of the changes that she talked about scared me (except maybe getting so weak that I might have to ask a man for help) .... as a matter of fact I
saw them as traits that I would like to have.
But that's all easy from where I sit now ... I haven't started to really feel them so I don't know how will really feel ... how can any of us
So here's my question .... can the transformation be taken slowly. Alowing oneself to notice the changes, "feel" and "live them" and then deciding if ones commitment is real?
I'm really not in a hurry ... BUT I am feeling things that I want to understand more.
Can one start the journey and then along the way decide ..
1. This isn't what I thought it was .... and turn back?
2. This is as far as I want to go ... my breasts are the size I want and I'm feeling "less intensely male" and stay at that point?
3. This is TRULY ME and I'll never go back
I keep going back and forth on what to do and what to take ... cause I'm not sure what I will REALLY FEEL when my breasts start to feel the things that many talk about in these forums. Or when I look down and see that my moobs aren't moobs anymore. OR when I start to think and feel more like a women.
Can I start with a small daily dose of let's say PM ... keep a diary along the way thinking hard about my transition and taking time to understand everything that I'm seeing and feeling and THEN DECIDE whether I want to go forward or turn back?
I really don't think I will do anything more than "speculate" until I feel it for myself.
Karen